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Right Where I Belong

2010-11-15T12:32:00.001+08:00

Yes, it’s finally holiday for me. For this 1 miserable week. But.. it’s better than nothing. After months of madness, this holiday is going to be a nice relaxing one for me. I plan to… clean out my horrendous room, watch the movies I downloaded and stole, read some novels and just laze around a bit.

I’ve just ventured into Good Charlotte’s new album… Some songs are pretty good. In fact, there’s even a song that’s dedicated to God. Wow… I’m amazed. It’s a really good album. “Harlow’s Song” is very very nice..

Right Where I Belong

As I leave the empty station

First thing I see is the sun over the mountains

West Hastings street, anxiously waiting

That’s when I feel that God is all around me

And I don’t know where to begin

To say I’m sorry for my sins

So I collapse into your arms

I’m sorry it took me so long

Out here, for me to find my way back home

I didn’t have a reason

For when I stopped believing

But I need you to know

That I’m right where I belong

Now I see everything clearly

In the rearview

That you were right beside me

So long ago, my voice of reason

It disappeared, along with my convictions

And now I know where it begins

Accept forgiveness for my sins

And just collapse into your open arms

I’m sorry it took me so long

Out here, for me to find my way back home

I didn’t have a reason

For when I stopped believing

But I need you to know

That I’m right where I belong

If all we are is where we’ve been

Then I know where I want to be

No matter how far I drift again

You keep a light on for me

Out here, so i can find my way back home

I didn’t have a reason

For when I stopped believing

But I need you to know

That I’m right where I belong now, with you

So I’ll stay quiet in your arms

Words don’t have a meaning

There’s no use in repeating

But I need you to know

That I’m right where I belong

Kill or be killed

2010-11-12T07:23:00.001+08:00

EXTERNAL EXAM’S TOMORROW!!! Argh~!!!

Counting down to the last hours before the exam. I’m thinking of how to make those hours well accounted for now. 6 subjects to study for a 4 hour continuous exam. It’s just natural that some of us will lose our minds at the end of it. The moment I’m sort of done studying my physics, I kind of think that I’ve forgotten like 40% of my anatomy. Damn… Can’t they at least separate the 2 papers??

Anyway… today’s the all-nighter day in order to prep up for tomorrow’s battle!! It’s either I kill the paper or I’ll be killed by the paper. RAWR~!! After that, I’m just gonna throw everything aside and enjoy my 1 week’s worth of break. Looking forward to it already… *sob sob*

2010-11-10T17:22:00.001+08:00

Yes people, I’m blogging again. LOL!!! Sorry for the temporary abandon-ment.

Hmm…let’s see what has happened over the days/weeks/months…

Life’s been revolving a lot around academics and clinicals. Been going to clinics and hospitals a lot. Met different people in the hospital everyday. Some which are so young but are terminally ill. Some who tell me that their traditional “Kampung” medicine of some carrot juice mix helped cure his Urinary Tract Infection. Just funny stories all around and almost everytime that I’m there.

College’s been….err… kind of “interesting” as well. There’s a psycho in my class which I highly classify him as having bipolar disorder. My new batch of juniors just came in last week. Without a doubt… all of them are older than me. LOL!! But… half of them are doctors. So, I’m not quite sure how it’s going to turn out to be. Them trying to outsmart us seniors?? Don’t bother asking us for any advice or pointers on skill work?? Oh well… we’ll know in time.

Life’s been pretty boring too. Constant studying, studying and more studying. Can’t wait till my 1 week holiday next week. And by the way… my external exam is this Saturday!!! I’m a bit jittery about it. Same as I was for my internal exams. 6 papers, 6 subjects in 4 continuous hours. Total madness I tell you. The internal exam kick started with the Physics paper. I did pretty well in that. From there on, everyday went downhill…and that was a pretty steep hill. Second paper onwards was like, “the heck… I’ve never even heard of this or studied this before”. Yup… I winged 5 papers out of 6. Thankfully, I passed them all gracefully. I’m kind of hoping that I’ll do better in my external exam which is suppose to be a bit harder. I would so like to tell the external exam papers, “JUST DIE ALREADY!!”

And… I’m sure everyone has been pondering and waiting to see his pretty face…

Jumble Mumble

2010-09-07T09:20:00.001+08:00

It has been some time since this blog was TOUCHED!!

Days have been pretty busy. If my time wasn’t spent studying or going for classes or doing clinicals, they’re mostly spent either sleeping or hanging out with friends. So yup… got to get out and do stuff while I still have the capability to do so =P

I recently went on a trip to Genting Highlands during the Awal Muharam holidays. Despite the freak hot weather down here in KL, Genting was surprisingly colder than I thought it would be even during the day. Didn’t do much there actually. We were mostly walking around and hanging out in the apartment. Well… the whole point of the trip was to relax and de-stress. So we did it!!

Back to the academics AGAIN after the holidays. Swell… I didn’t even realise that my 1 of my big exam is mid of next month!! Awesome!! That would mean that I’ve got to put in more time staring at my books. Hopefully and I’m praying that I will pass the exam with flying colours after all the constant studying.

Oh yes…!! I encountered another BLONDE yesterday!! And she’s in my class!! OMG!

While I was typing my report in the college library yesterday, not only did this FELLA shut down her computer, she turned off the main power for all the computers while she was at it. So… my screen suddenly went BLANK when I was halfway through my report. And guess what she said to me? “Oh, I’m sorry…Did I off your computer too?” (in a non-existent innocent tone). Wow… I almost wanted to give her a piece of my mind. I never knew people could be so DUMB!!!

I encountered another blonde while I was in Perhentian as well. Which person in their right mind would grab someone’s leg while they’re swimming?!… IN THE SEA!!… WITHOUT A LIFE JACKET!!! And there always has to be a punch line. She surfaced from the water right after and told me, “Pearly, did you see the fish I tried to show you?”. Priceless… just priceless.

Perhentian!!

2010-08-19T18:37:00.001+08:00

The Perhentian Trip is over… Really sad that it is, but great memories remain =)

Yup, I spent 3 days 2 nights in Perhentian Island. Although the hotel wasn’t much, but overall it was better than expected. I managed to not get myself burnt into the same colour as my graduation robe…which is a good thing. I went snorkelling for the first time there. Got to see some fishes and a glimpse of a baby shark! Yup, it scared the hell out of me. Especially when I went in snorkelling without my lifejacket and suddenly my friend yelled “SHARK!” underwater. According to him, I almost drowned him because of that. LOL! Unfortunately, I missed seeing turtles due to my stupid motion sickness that decided to hit me at the wrong time.

Although I missed watching the sunrise and the sunset there, I managed to take night strolls along the beach. Found some glowing microorganisms along the water line. Definitely a nice place to go to unwind and just relax.

And now… it’s back to the busy schedule once again. Been going to Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah, Klang for the past few days and it’s bloody tiring!! But the experience and what I learn there is good. Found out that I really like working in the hospital. LOL!

It’s going to be another good weekend! Convocation dinner and Convocation is coming up! Can’t wait till I officially graduate and be officially known as a Post Grad student. HAHA!!

possible good start?

2010-08-10T22:36:00.001+08:00

I took a practical assessment last friday and finally got an answer today… that I passed!! Totally went in there not prepared at all. All I know was that I was prepared to give it my best shot and do what I can. I think just going in with what you’ve got rather than purposely preparing for it would be the best thing to do. It would genuinely test your own skills and what you’re actually capable of. So now I know mine =)

Anyways… a senior who recently dropped out of the last semester (part II) came back to pay his coursemates a visit before taking off to Australia tonight. And it was definitely good news to know that he could get a trainee position in Perth even without completing the part II exams. I’m more pumped up to work towards the end of this course!! Can’t wait to go overseas to work and start earning foreign currency. HAHAHAHA!!

I so want to do some shopping. *sob sob*

And yes… I’m going to do something very meaningful soon… Hehe… Will blog about it once it’s done and over with. Till then… back to the busy schedule and not to mention PERHENTIAN TRIP!!

Should have

2010-08-04T10:44:00.001+08:00

I guess I should have done this a whole lot earlier rather than doing it now. It wasn’t easy. It felt nice, warm and comfy to just be there. But just as the sun will eventually set, all things must come to an end.

I’ve decided to throw it all away. To throw “us” away in whatever context and term that was previously understood. My emotions weighs down but it is something that has to be done sooner if not later.

Oh wait…I’m 23!

2010-08-03T18:41:00.001+08:00

This poor brain of mine is going to go delusional soon enough. I’m just waiting for the time that it will actually EXPLODE!!

Sometimes I don’t understand why… Why can’t people give me a break. Isn’t studying from 9.30am to 4.30pm ENOUGH for the day?? Isn’t teaching yourself everything and still able to pass and get a decent grade ENOUGH? Or better yet… please give me your definition of ENOUGH. Maybe it comes differently in my dictionary. And how the hell does threatening help to “motivate” someone??

I definitely, without a doubt, need another holiday to retrieve what is left of my so called sanity. I think I’ll use like a dustpan and a broom to sweep up the bits and pieces of what remains. Oh wait… Maybe the other better option would be to just lose it all.

life is all about scanning

2010-06-30T21:58:00.001+08:00

Life’s been pretty hectic nowadays……….. No, I’m just kidding. But no doubt, I have lots of assignments, presentations and tests lined up every week till September. Just looking at my academic calender for this semester makes me sad.

Other than the same old boring stuff of studying and classes, I have much more practicals now as compared to my degree course. ALL includes ultrasound scanning. Well, the roles change from time to time. One minute I’m the sonographer, the next minute I’m the “patient”. But yes, it has been fun indeed other than the gel that is used. I’m not a big fan of that darn gel, but it’s a necessary and essential item for ultrasound scans.

If you are able to tell what’s in the picture, then please enrol yourself into the sonography course as soon as possible =p

Life after Uni

2010-06-21T10:47:00.001+08:00

Life after uni has been great so far. The holidays I mean. Been enjoying the holidays pretty much. But sadly, I kind of miss my Uni…!! More of missing my uni friends and just being around the uni. It gives a different feeling as compared to being around my college now. Sigh… one more year to go before being pushed into the working world for good!!

Sad… Got some serious work to do with my course now. Weekly assessments are going to be a big pain.

Perth!!

2010-06-20T00:12:00.001+08:00

I went, I saw and I came back…from Perth! It was a great holiday. Just as what I imagined it to be. And it is all thanks to my friends who are there who made it all so much fun and enjoyable. What can I say…the place and company was good.

Okay, okay…back to the place.

I landed in Perth on the 9th of June to the temperature of 8 degrees Celsius!! Can you imagine going from a place of 30 degrees to a place of 8 degrees in a few hours? It was madness initially. I was literally suffering the cold weather, shaking from within out even with 3 layers of clothes!! The 1st day was a little crazy due to the weather. Made me felt as though I was going to fall sick that instant…but it was all good. Managed to get my winter coat so it was a little better from there on. Think I was more or less okay with the weather after the 1st day. In fact, I kind of liked the cold weather as compared to the hot and humid weather back here.

So… 1st night in Perth… I had the biggest burger I’ve seen by far in Jus Burgers. Haha… It was seriously huge; or at least they’re huge to me. Obviously, it tasted good! Seriously, almost all the food there tasted awesome, not to mention that the portions are big and really worth your money.

Yup, they all look good don’t they? =D

So… I managed to visit Fremantle, Swan Valley and a few beaches. The nougat factory, chocolate factory, winery and honey farm was in Swan Valley. The beaches there are to die for too. The water is crystal clear that you’re able to see the fishes and even mini jelly fishes!! Unlike “somewhere”, the beaches there are very clean and well taken care of.

With much thanks to…

Rachie

and Ryan

For more photos…please go to facebook =p

2010-06-02T15:10:00.001+08:00

I read this book which I’ve actually gotten quite some time ago. It entitles, “101 Really Important Things You Already Know, But Keep Forgetting”. Definitely a worthy read…

Here’s the 101 things =)

1. You don’t have to know the secret to life to enjoy it

2. Being reasonable wins you the booby prize

3. Life is tough – but then again, compared to what?

4. Happiness doesn’t care how you get there

5. Life’s a breeze when you work as hard as simplifying it as you do at complicating it

6. Predict your failures and you will be a highly successful prophet

7. The pain of unfulfilled dreams can be the worst ache you ever experience

8. Extraordinary things are accomplished by ordinary people

9. Overnight success only happens in fairy tales, trashy novels and bad movies

10. To know and not to do is not yet to know

11. Always expect the unexpected because the only certain thing is uncertainty

12. Too much safety is dangerous

13. You can observe a lot just by watching

14. Don’t mess around with reality and reality won’t mess around with you

15. Excuses and blame won’t make a bit of difference in your life

16. What is the most difficult to accomplish is the sweetest to remember

17. Self-pity costs you nothing and it’s worth just as much

18. If something is boring you, it’s probably you

19. Most worry is totally useless

20. Procrastinate and keep up with yesterday

21. There’s no point in buying expensive socks if you can never find them

22. Book smart does not mean life smart

23. Time is not money; it is worth much more – spend it wisely

24. Watching a lot of television won’t add to the quality of your life

25. The main purpose of life is to live a life of purpose

26. People are only human – if they weren’t, life would be different

27. Choose your friends wisely – quality instead of quantity

28. Never overestimate you ability to change others

29. Giving advice means either losing or breaking even

30. Don’t walk away from negative people, RUN!

31. Hand around with a bunch of blunders and you will be one in due time

32. There’s insanity on both sides of the debate when you argue with an idiot

33. The best way to impress people is by not trying to impress them

34. Nice people are often not good people and good people are often not nice people

35. Everyone, including you and me, is selfish

36. When someone fails to keep a commitment, there is 95 percent chance that it will happen again

37. Good deeds are seldom remembered, bad deeds are seldom forgotten

38. The surest way to failure is trying to please everyone

39. It’s easier to stay out of trouble than to get out of trouble

40. Don’t take it personally; they’re probably doing it to everyone else

41. The more important it is, the less chance that anybody is going to do it for you

42. With a bad attitude you can miss out on a lot of the good things life has to offer

43. Belief is a disease

44. Beware of experts’ predictions, especially about the future

45. Wise people learn more from fools than fools learn from wise people

46. Be careful with you heroes; don’t put them on pedestals

47. It doesn’t cost much to be kind, but it can be very costly being too kind

48. Admit your mistakes and you will make fewer of them

49. Being right at all costs is like being a dead hero – there’s no payoff

50. Smart minds ask dumb questions

51. Only fools are afraid to be fools

52. Your past is always going to be the way it was – so stop trying to change it!

53. If your house is on fire, warm yourself by it

54. The best revenge is to live well

55. It’s never too late to learn something new and improve yourself

56. You are the biggest cause of problems in your life

57. Many of the things you want will give you more problems than they are worth

58. You ain’t going to solve the problem if you don’t identify it properly

59. You can change the quality of your life by changing the context in which you view your circumstances

60. The severity of your problems is a matter of perspective and that makes most of them insignificant

61. No one can give you wiser advice than yourself

62. What will keep you from getting what you want is not knowing what you want

63. You aren’t going to get what you want unless you ask for it

64. If you don’t find time for exercise, you will have to find time for illness

65. A walk or run in nature is the best medicine for many of your ailments

66. There is no shortcut to being fit and trim

67. Your expectations cause you the most disappointment in your life

68. There is no one big deal in life that will save your hide

69. The world doesn’t owe you or anyone else a living

70. When money is not your servant, it becomes your master

71. Compromising your integrity for money, power, fame, or love will come back to haunt you

72. A big pile of money will do just as much to cure your unhappiness as a small pile

73. You can never get enough of what you don’t really need or want

74. Want what you have and you will always get what you what

75. The good life is not all that it is cracked up to be

76. Practice moderation in excess because too much of a good thing can be a bad thing

77. Nothing satisfies a greedy mind

78. You are already rich and live in luxury

79. The cheaper the activity, the greater the fun

80. There is more to positive thinking than just thinking positive thoughts

81. Life isn’t fair and it will continue to be that way

82. You are a millionaire; your creativity makes it so

83. If patience is just the art of concealing your impatience, you better be very good at it

84. To put more time in your life, don’t rush. Slow down instead

85. Try to accomplish too much and you will accomplish little

86. Even the simplest task can be meaningful if you do it in the right spirit

87. Stop trying so hard to be happy and watch the good times roll

88. Set all your seriousness aside because life is a laughing matter

89. It’s easier to ride a horse in the direction it’s going

90. The important thing is not what others think of you, but what you think of you

91. Keep breathing! You never know when life may be worth living again

92. You can’t make a big difference in this world unless you are different

93. You must be home when opportunity knocks

94. What is valuable invariably comes with a price, usually bigger than you think

95. A genius is someone with more persistence than you

96. Perfection is a refuge of idiots

97. Being successful at work is irrelevant if you are a failure at home

98. All you can experience is the now, so why aren’t you there?

99. Spontaneity is too valuable to be left unplanned

100. Look inside and you will find more outside

101. A full, happy and satisfying life is not dependent upon how long you live, but how well you live

final results….finally

2010-05-28T13:08:00.001+08:00

My final results is finally out. And it seems as though my finals just ended last week or something. Hmm… Uni being more diligent and efficient maybe?? In a way, it’s good.

Results……..

Oh results……..

I don’t know how exactly to describe my results. I almost made it into the Dean’s list this last semester…but… it’s not enough to give me what I want at the end. So how am I suppose to conclude it?? I have no freaking idea. But I know now that if I really put effort into doing it, I can make it. And the bottom line is… I’m officially cleared for graduation. No more degree. Post grad diploma coming soon though. Hopefully I’ll still have that kind of momentum that I had for my this last semester to study for my diploma. If not….consequences will be hilarious. LOL

Anyway… Perth… I will be invading you soon =p

the taste of liberation and freedom

2010-05-22T13:13:00.001+08:00

Holidays…has been good so far. Kind of enjoying the extra free time and going out whenever I want to. Been keeping myself moving for the past few days. Met up with some friends, went hiking again… =)

Got to enjoy the little things (Zombieland, 2009) =p

I’m also slowly cleaning up my room bit by bit. LOL… I’ve just gotten around to clearing my table. Have yet to clear up my shelves, notes and books for my new Programme coming soon.

Hike up Broga Hill was once again good. Managed to show myself that my stamina has improved a bit as compared to last time. Still need to work on my stamina as how I’ve planned. Trying to get back into the “fit” state I once was in. Current stamina level is just downright embarrassing =p

Anyway…here’s some pics from my 2nd hike up Broga. Only managed to go up to the 1st peak this time but I think it was still good =)

And last but not least, my favourite pic of that day =)

Definitely want to go back there again and make it to all the 4 peaks the next time around.

holidays….for now

2010-05-18T15:37:00.001+08:00

Yes, I’m suppose to be on my long awaited holiday now. But I’m more or less rotting at home and at the same time trying to do those things which I didn’t had the time to do previously…which I just come to realise that it’s not much =p

My next move to entertain myself at home…download and watch movies which I’ve missed while I was busy being a nerd. Indulging in songs is right on top of my list as well. Going to do some songs hunting once again. Can’t get enough of good music =)

For those who love music too, try out Lifehouse’s new album. Got a number of pretty cool songs in there.

“too long we’ve been denying, now we’re both tired of trying,

we hit a wall and we can’t get over it

nothing to relive, it’s water under the bridge,

you said it, I get it, I guess it is what it is”

“everytime I reach for you, there’s no one to hold on to,

nothing left for me to miss, I’m letting go, letting go of this,

lost my mind thinking it through, the light inside has left me too,

now I know what empty is, I’ve had enough, had enough of this”

at last…???

2010-05-15T18:24:00.001+08:00

Today… is the day… that I finish my last degree paper!! Yes, I’m rejoicing…inside =P A bit too tired and emotionless due to the lack of sleep to actually jump for joy now. But yeah, although the paper was rather “sucky”, I’m just glad it’s finally over. Now I’m just praying that I don’t have to repeat any subjects *touch wood*.

Now, let’s move on to holidays… hehe… But, my holidays will only last for 1 month or so. 3 weeks in Malaysia and 1 week in Perth, Australia. *wootz~!!* After that, back to studying again. Yeah, as many do not know yet, I got a scholarship to study a Post Grad Diploma in Sonography a.k.a. Ultrasound. So I’ll have another 1 year of studies left before heading out into the working world. I wonder if that is a good thing or a bad thing. But one thing’s for sure, this scholarship better be worth it ‘cause I turned down 4 job offers in my own field for this thing!! ARGH~!!! It is still frustrating to me to turn down those offers. But in a way, I know that I’m capable of being hired. HAHA!!! =P

And… let me “enlighten” those who think that it’s all about the grades to get a job or a good job. I’m telling you, through my experience of going through job interviews and such, it doesn’t matter how good your grades are. At the end of the day, it’s your skills and applications that matter. Go to an interview with a blank head and you’ll come back empty handed as well. You can be smart on paper, but it all comes to how smart you’re going to make yourself seem during an interview. For fields such as mine, Biomedical Science, I even got a mini-test during 1 of my interview sessions. LOL… It’s all about knowing and remembering what you studied. And let me tell you the next best thing… STUDENT COUNCIL LEADERS ARE HIGHLY SOUGHT AFTER EVEN IF YOU DON’T GO BACK TO YOUR OWN FIELD OF STUDY. And that is the truth.

So, all the best to those who are out searching for jobs and going for interview. Please remember to bring along some “INTERPERSONAL COMMUNICATIONS” skills with you.

And that almost about wraps up my 3 years of Biomedical Science degree =)

divorced

2010-04-28T00:35:00.001+08:00

As quoted by Edna, I’ve finally signed the divorce papers with my Final Year Project and thesis. Should I jump for joy?? Of course I’m jumping for joy!! All those nights staying up to work on perfecting my thesis… it better pay off. LOL

Finals are coming next week. My preparations are half hanging still and I do feel like hanging myself at the same time. But then again… this is the last time I’ll be sitting for these sort of things. So, got to suck it up no matter what.

On an entirely separate note…

I do find things to be slightly more complicated now than they used to be. I often ponder on whether it is because I made them that way or it just spontaneously happened. I’m rather clueless about it myself. I even find it hard to define or explain how I feel and why I feel that way nowadays. Signs of psychosis or bipolar disorder maybe???

heading towards the end

2010-04-15T06:16:00.001+08:00

I have finally come to the end of writing my thesis. Yay~!!!! Yup, I officially finished the contents and main chapters at 5am this morning. And since I’ll have to be preparing myself for uni at 6am, I decided to stay awake anyway and torture myself with gastric.

My thesis was like my one and only hope left to pull up my grades this semester. That’s why I was crunching and scrutinizing it so badly. Finishing my thesis gave me a slight liberation. Although I’ve still got minor grammar corrections, at least the main text is done and I don’t need to crack my brains and eyes to hunt, print and read journals anymore. But I think I still need to a bit for my presentation next week. After next week, my final year project would officially come to a close and then it would be FINALS time.

I went for my 1st job interview yesterday and I think it went pretty well. At least I wasn’t one of those who couldn’t answer on how to do a blood grouping test. Haha… The answer just popped up from the back of my head. Amazing… But yeah, I’ll still have to wait for their confirmation whether they “want” me or not. I’m still considering that company though. Working hours are crazy. So… more like a 50-50 chance.

Anyways… time to go uni soon and probably caffeinate myself to stay awake the whole day. Last test tomorrow to wrap up all the midterms for the semester. Now you see how “sad” it is that almost everything is coming to an end?? Lol… up to your interpretation…

In a blink

2010-03-27T12:08:00.001+08:00

Yup… in a blink of an eye or maybe 2 eyes, the semester is almost coming to an end since now it’s already Week 11. Which means that the Grand Finale of Biomedical Science May ‘10 is approaching. I don’t know if I should be scared or relieved. LOL… but all in all, it was a good run.

My tutorial group had our convocation pictures taken last Thursday. Introducing, group 3 of Biomedical Science Graduating batch of May ‘10.

Well, it’s back to the streak of tests again. 4-5 more tests to go before the finals… last stretch of the race =)

what just happened??

2010-03-21T01:58:00.001+08:00

Yet another hectic week. It didn’t seem too hectic at first during the start of the week…till Wednesday came and I started to panic for my test. The funny thing was, I didn’t think that sleep and panic would go together, but they did eventually. LOL… I overslept and didn’t manage to finish reading the syllabus covered in the test. Another brilliant stunt which I haven’t tried pulling and this would be the first and hopefully the last.

Ok…the symposium last Sunday…

The waiting part was gruesome. Watching other participants getting shot by the panel of judges was pretty intimidating. All the UTAR participants got their equal share of getting shot down. So did I. But I got more of comments rather than questions. Pretty productive and beneficial I would say. Those comments gave me some pointers to include and improve my thesis. Hehe… So it’s all good. LOL

I got to meet up with some old friends this week. Met up with Zhao for lunch and movie, and also met up with Li Shan and May Yee after so long. I was quite happy to see them again and to talk about old times and also catch up on what we’re all doing now. Makes me feel old since we have so many old stories to tell each other. Haha… But it was good. Had a good time with both company. It’ll be good to do it again soon but with others as well.

I just realised that I sort of swamped myself with work. I scheduled too many things to be done and completed in a short period of time in order to buy more time for upcoming events. Hmm… is it a smart move or a bad move?? ‘Cause I’m barely getting sleep.

Speaking of sleep… I find that I’d rather stay awake nowadays than to sleep. No doubt I feel tired and drained and my brain is fried, but I would try to stay awake the best I can with minimum sleep. Yeah, I’m trying to adopt the “I can sleep when I’m dead” concept. I’m not too sure how it is working for me though. Should be getting more work done that way. And the whole point was to kill my brains so that it would not function to think of unnecessary stuff. It’s good to numb it all…

Happy!!… Happy??…

2010-03-13T03:16:00.001+08:00

The weekend is approaching… which means that the Symposium is almost here!! I’m literally terrified of that thing. Seriously. I term it my public humiliation day. I’m just praying hard that it’s going to go fine and that I won’t get shot down by the panel with their intelligent questions.

Other than that… same ol’ same old. In and out of classes everyday. Assignments, thesis, reports…the usual. With all this going on, I find myself resorting to “happy” songs in hopes to cheer myself up at the end of the day or in between things. My definition of “happy” songs would be songs whose lyrics are of hope, being happy, about life…stuff like that. Most importantly, the music must be good too. Essential for a music junkie like me. LOL… And they’re SUPPOSE to CHEER me up. Whether they actually work… that’s another question right there.

Over time… I find that ignorance to certain matters can be pretty stupid as it doesn’t help to alleviate the problem at all. Dumping it aside only allows it to set in with time and then, the full effects gradually shows. In fact, I’m kind of missing it more than usual. Mind over emotions?? Can we really?? Definite subjective matter…

What a week…

2010-03-07T00:38:00.001+08:00

It has been a pretty long week although time passed in a blink of an eye.

Yup, time do tend to pass faster when you’re piled up with work and study plans. In fact, 24 hours never seem enough. Always wishing for more time to cramp in that extra study time or to finish up assignments and reports…or to SLEEP!!

Back to the topic about this whole week… now that the week is at its end…

I had 2 tests scheduled for this week. Initially, they were on Wednesday and Friday. Friday’s paper was obviously much easier to study for, so the one day gap wasn’t such a bad idea. Then… came the news on Tuesday that Wednesday’s test was postponed to Thursday. Which doesn’t leave me much time to study for Friday’s paper. Yes, I managed to put myself into that kind of stupid situation…always. But yeah… I studied for both subjects anyway, with minimum time allocated for sleep…let’s say, about 3-4 hours a day or night (day: refers to the accumulated hours of sleep during that day)?? I’ve been depending on caffeine (either in tea or coffee) to keep my mind and my body awake and moving. So… I was pretty much sleep deprived throughout the week.

Then… I went for another Wii party yesterday. Obviously I went in my “sleep deprived” mode. Although the test on Friday was in the morning and that was my only class, but I killed time by working on my assignment, having lunch with friends and fixing my car. I was still working on my Project Presentation when I was in my friend’s place. Now I feel like a typical workaholic. LOL… Half true. The work never stops and never ends.

Note: All this stress and workload has rendered my brains less efficient. It explains why I ended up answering my friend’s phone in an upside-down manner. Priceless…

Next week… Will be ~~dread-filled~~ fear-filled. My presentation is next weekend!! I can feel my stomach flipping over and doing cartwheels everytime I think about it. Plus, I have to put in time to study for my tests again… ARGH~!!!

DREAMLAND/LA-LA LAND… I’M SO SORRY THAT MY VISITING HOURS WILL BE EXTENSIVELY SHORTENED FOR AT LEAST A FEW MORE WEEKS

Best news I’ve received so far this week… My one and only class on Monday has been cancelled for the coming week. Which means… unofficial holiday. Which also means… extra time to do my stuffs. But doesn’t mean… that I have more time to sleep or waste away. Interesting…

Sway/Sial Day

2010-02-28T11:21:00.001+08:00

Yes!! Yesterday was officially sway/sial day.

Firstly…

My endurance was being rebellious and refused to listen to the host/owner. Thus, I decided to stop at the 2nd peak of Broga Hill. Such a let down as compared to the hike during Gunung Datuk. But the view and overall climb/walk was great and refreshing. As expected…loads of people were there when it was about 6/7-ish. Literally crowded.

Second…

I opened my email after coming back from Broga… then I saw… the email from the Biomed club of UPM. My ‘forced’ entry of my project into the Symposium that they’re organizing has been accepted. WHAT THE CRAP!!!! How could my simple and messy work be accepted?! Now I have to prepare for the presentation/public humiliation session on March 14. Just when I was discussing with the other 2 students who were also ‘forced’ to enter about this… saying that we don’t hope to get it. In the end… sigh…

Third…

I went out for a late dinner with my family. Went to one usual shop that we always go to. And… I saw “the b******” there with his family. And it made me remember all the littlest, stupidest moments that I had last time.

It was definitely SWAY/SIAL day yesterday. Hope today and the coming weeks will be better…

with regret, repent, be strong

2010-02-20T13:04:00.001+08:00

And as it comes swifting in, it drowns me… it always does

My eyes are painted red

The canvas on my soul

Is slowly breaking down, again

Today I heard the news

The story’s getting old

When will we see the end

Of the days, we bleed, for what we need

To forgive, forget, move on

Cause we’ve got

One life to live

One love to give

One chance to keep from falling

One heart to break

One soul to take us

Not forsake us

Only one

The writings one the wall

Of those who came before

Left pictures frozen still, in time

You say you want it all

But whose side you’re fighting for

I sit and wonder why

There are night, we sleep, while others they weep

With regret, repent, be strong

Cause we’ve got

One life to live

One love to give

One chance to keep from falling

One heart to break

One soul to take us

Not forsake us

Only one

darn virus

2010-02-19T17:44:00.001+08:00

The week of the Chinese New Year holidays is coming to an end…more like a screeching end. I’m undecided whether I’d prefer the holidays or for the semester to start again so that everything would be done faster. Eventhough it’s CNY, there’s still lots of things to do… assignments, report, thesis, and…catching up on the syllabus for tests. Such a pain… Sleeping doesn’t help to remove my dark circles anymore. How sad…

I was fine when I woke up today. Till I bent over to touch my dog and suddenly I felt the nice “twist/sprain” happening to my neck. Thus, I now have a stiff neck which is highly irritating. But… I went for badminton anyways with the painful neck and agitated it more when I was playing. Felt totally “great”… especially when I got charged at and rammed again by the same person.

***

Hmm… I once thought that that chapter has closed. Only to learn that it doesn’t always close completely. It’s like a darn virus… although it’s not active and causing you all the nonsense, it doesn’t mean that it’s not there either. It’s probably in a dormant state, waiting for the right time to cause another round of nonsense till it gets the best of you.

I have… stopped trying to make sense of things or even trying to reason out as to why some things happen. Just keep saying that “yeah, it’ll all be ok, it’s alright. no worries about it”. Really??? I, as the first person of the picture, have no idea/clue what-so-ever. But… I can safely say that this is as far as it goes and I’m done trying.

“Light up, light up

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I’ll be right beside you, dear

Louder, louder

And we’ll run for our lives

I can hardly speak, I understand

Why you can’t raise your voice to say…”

caffeine madness

2010-02-13T00:59:00.001+08:00

I drank coffee for the 1st time on Tuesday in order to keep my mind awake and eyes open. Although the coffee effect is not as bad as effect of tea, but it did its job initially. Had my 1st can of coffee in the morning before class and it turned out fine. Then, I decided that I should have another can of coffee before I drive back so that I’m awake and well enough to drive. Drive home was swift as usual, with minimal “fishing” moments. But… 30minutes after reaching home, I literally was trembling from the inside out and I felt a bit hyper although I’m dead tired. LOL

Caffeine has a rather prominent and significant effect on me, I would say. Tea especially, causes me to do and say all sorts of weird stuff. Some call it “being high”. Yup… For example, after drinking 2 cups of tea on Monday morning to keep me awake, I started writing nonsense like replacing the word “anxious” with “anxions”. Then… my brain registered the word “thought” as “otot”. Hilarious indeed. And… I’m capable of laughing like crazy for about 15 minutes. That’s the wonderful effects of tea/caffeine.

Culture shock

2010-02-05T21:40:00.001+08:00

I had a very interesting lecture on Culture today in Interpersonal Communications class.

We’ve always perceived culture as literally, “different race, different religion, different origin, different culture”. Well, today I learnt that it’s much more than that. Culture is not a measurement of a race or religion. Circumstances, background, media influences, etc., all play a role in moulding our individual culture. And yeah, everyone has their own individual and different culture. What people have been doing all the while is called stereotyping, which is classifying people of similar race or religion or origin into categories of similar characteristics or tradition.

I couldn’t agree more with the facts and points which have been highlighted today. It’s happening everyday in everyone’s life whether we like it or not, it’s unavoidable. To date, I really think that circumstances and events have made me a more evil and cruel person than I was before. Of course, those who don’t see those “events” won’t understand why. Even if you tell a person that you understand how they feel at that moment, do you really?? Especially when you’re not put in that situation. But I think it’s alright… If everyone were able to understand everything that has been thrown to them, there wouldn’t be challenges would there?

So yeah… I’m experiencing culture shock almost everyday. As quoted in my notes…

“First stage: You’ll still be comfortable with the new ambiguities around and find them interesting.

Second stage: Those new ambiguities will start to bother you and you’ll start feeling uncomfortable and probably frustrated

Third stage: You start learning to accept and adapt to the new changes

Fourth stage: Although those ambiguities are new to you, you have learned to accept it and are now comfortable with it”

***

I’m no longer capable of finding that same room in me to cry anymore. That feeling of fear is just gone…

But drenched in vanilla twilight

I’ll sit on the front porch all night

Waist-deep in thought because

When I think of you I don’t feel so alone

the ultimate weekend

2010-02-03T23:41:00.001+08:00

I had one of the craziest weekend ever last week. I thought my weekend would be spent doing reports, assignments and also my thesis. But no… it was filled with a whole bunch of crazy and interesting stuff. So much for being a nerd.

Saturday

Went through the whole week thinking that I have the Saturday morning free to myself. I conveniently forgot about the Postgraduate Seminar in the morning. LOL… But I made it there after remembering it on Friday.

Overall, it was an informative seminar. Roughly got the information that I needed.

Then the day was followed up with Church service and dinner.

Sunday

One of the most packed days that I’ve had with back-to-back plans.

My ex-SRC group came down to Subang to have a fun day out and decided to crash my house early in the morning. LOL… Had breakfast together then we hit pyramid for ice skating, followed by lunch and bowling. Everyone was expecting me to fall down since I’ve never ice skate before. Unfortunately, my roller blade skills came in handy. Haha!! Managed to prevent myself from falling and looking like a noob. Quite a good experience although the skates were killing my feet and gave me an invisible bruise. Good job skates.

Later that day, I went for dinner with my family since it was my dad’s birthday. Had a nice dinner although there wasn’t many food selections for the buffet. But no doubt, the food was good. I reminded myself to stay away from the raw oysters also since I’ve done my research on CHOLERA. Lol… The lemon is a must for raw oysters… remember that. Haha

After dinner, I shot off to a friend’s birthday party. Even though I was late and missed literally everything, but I think being there to wish her and staying for a while means a lot to me. =)

Monday

Had my first ever hiking experience in Gunung Datuk. Almost killed myself by climbing the last stretch of rocks and boulders. Really looked like a suicide mission. Haha… But it was all good. Managed to overcome the fear of heights for that brief moment although I didn’t go all the way up to the very top.

The hike up was crazy. I didn’t expect it to be that strenuous especially to my knees. Really felt my knee injury when hiking up. But I got the ultimate satisfaction by reaching the highest landing before climbing the boulders. Definitely an achievement for myself since my stamina and physical fitness is ancient.

Coming down was initially easy as I could skip the steps to take the weight strain off my knees. It was so nice after the halfway mark though. The terrain was rougher so skipping through it would be a pretty bad idea. That was when the other knee injury kicked in. If my knees were machines, they’re way past their maintenance period and needs some serious change of parts or literally a new machine.

All in all, it was a good experience. Would definitely like to try it again but with a different location. But I doubt it’ll be soon because old physical junks like mine needs major recuperating and it takes darn long. LOL

***

At the moment, my work is piling up by the day. Amount of things needed to study too. Guess I need to savour these outings and fun times whenever I can before I’m unable to make it to them anymore soon.

It is in times like these that I really hope I know what I’m doing. It’s probably going to sting but the consequences are suppose to be beneficial. Everything has its own price I guess. We just need to evaluate whether it’s worth paying or not.

It’s 7.30am in the morning

2010-01-31T08:02:00.001+08:00

Yup, I have a tendency to blog at the oddest times of the day. Go figure why…

It’s only the 2nd academic week and work is already piling up and I’m lacking sleep. Reports, assignments and my thesis… such a pain. Just yesterday, I felt my resolve and determination level rising. I think they just fell back down again.

Talking about yesterday… I went for this postgraduate seminar in the morning. It was boring… no doubt, in the beginning. But the group session was somewhat informative. Got to learn and know more about the countries that I’m thinking of going to for work or studies in the future. Currently, 2 places sound pretty good to me: Australia and New Zealand.

Aus: Friends are there, probable job prospect, MIGHT enjoy life there… hmm…

NZ: Definitely a place I’ve been wanting to go and spend some time of my life there, good job prospect for my field I think, slow paced life…

Tough decision to make, but I doubt I’ll be making it soon.

And these are the random moments

2010-01-26T21:17:00.001+08:00

I barely got 4 hours of sleep in last night/early this morning. And now, I’m about to repeat the same thing again although I have a long day ahead tomorrow.

Although I feel tired and somewhat exhausted, I still don’t feel like shutting my eyes to just doze off into dreamland. Maybe because I never do reach there. I always fall in between… I guess.

I’ve been working and trying extremely hard to make my thesis look and sound good. But how good it actually is, is still doubtful. I know I doubt it. I can barely get my head straight to focus for 1 hour without my thoughts breaking up somewhere in the middle. It can be frustrating ‘cause that would mean that I have to trace my thoughts back IF I manage to. Although my dateline is 2 days away for my thesis and I THINK I’ll be able to make the dateline, I still feel rather indifferent when I’m suppose to be either stressed or relieved.

And now… I wish the silence would break. Currently still pondering as to what I should do or should not do. Time is closing in…

Owl City

2010-01-25T02:05:00.001+08:00

On days where things just aren’t all that happy-go-lucky or smooth, I personally think the songs by Owl City are uplifting enough for the spirit… at least for me… in terms of the melody that is. Among their songs which come from the only 2 albums they have so far…

Fireflies

I’d like to make myself believe

That planet Earth turns slowly

It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay awake when I’m asleep

‘Cause everything is never as it seems

Vanilla Twilight

When violet eyes get brighter

And heavy wings grow lighter

I’ll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I’ll forget the world that I knew

But I swear I won’t forget you

Oh if my voice could reach back through the past

I’d whisper in your ear

Oh darling I wish you were here

Rainbow Veins

Cheer up and dry your damp eyes and tell me when it rains
And I’ll blend up that rainbow above you and shoot it through your veins
’Cause your heart has a lack of colour and we should’ve known

That we’d grow up sooner or later ‘cause we wasted all our free time alone

And my personal favourite…

The Saltwater Room

Time together is just never quite enough

When you and I are alone

I never felt so at home

What will it take to make or break this hint of love?

We need time, only time

When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?

If this is what I call home

Why does it feel so alone?

So tell me darling

Do you wish we’d fall in love?

All the time, all the time

On another note altogether…

I have forcefully and successfully finished 3 chapters of my thesis. Now there’s 2 more to go and the abstract. This is so depressing. *blegh~!!* This week better end soon and smoothly ‘cause I sure am not looking forward to it no thanks to my thesis dateline. At the end of this week, or rather by Friday, let’s hope that I’m able to breathe again.

Tragedy and I, we’re good friends

2010-01-24T09:49:00.001+08:00

I do seriously think that trouble/nonsense finds me wherever I go. Like literally… even when I don’t go looking for it or asking for it. It just miraculously pops up to visit me like friends do.

I found out on Thursday, that my car got hit by something or someone without me knowing. Yup, I was INFORMED of the huge dent in my back bumper by my mom while I was halfway sleeping. But, I do suspect that IT came from Uni. So… sigh… another thing to put money into to fix. If it was my fault, I wouldn’t mind putting in money to fix it at all. But this?! It’s just plain ridiculous.

Then… I was also INFORMED on Thursday that I have to submit my thesis into an intervarsity science symposium. Now… here’s the beauty of it. I have to submit my abstract and thesis to my lecturer by next Thursday when I’ve only completed half of my thesis with 2 more chapters to go and the abstract. The 2 remaining chapters is actually the results and discussion…which is the main body of the abstract. Bummer…

Nowadays, I tend to slow down MORE on the road and also be more patient thanks to 2 people who have advised me to be more patient. Yeah, so I drive more carefully. But, me driving more carefully doesn’t mean that I don’t get into an “almost accident” situation. I’ve been experiencing for the past few days on the highway, people who are TRYING to get me into an accident. I have nuts who instead of breaking gradually, just literally step on the brakes to come to a sudden stop while being somewhat a far distance from the car in front of them. Then, I have too, lorries that just swerve into my lanes without signalling and they’re pretty close to scratching my car. And there are idiots who do not understand the meaning of jams and hit the brakes really awesomely late on a rainy day that they skid to a halt at the back of my car, and… I have to move in front and to the side a little just to prevent them from hitting me. Yup, MALAYSIAN drivers are GREAT drivers.

Remember when we’re kids, parents would always tell you to stay out of trouble?? Well… although I do get the same thing, I beg to differ. You have got to tell trouble to stop hunting me down.

Increased level of stupidity

2010-01-20T19:32:00.001+08:00

I just found out that I have misinterpreted my thesis dateline all this while. Instead of it being the 3rd week of January, it’s actually the 3rd week of the semester. And… I’ve been stressing and rushing for it… all for… nothing!!! Stupidity…

And… I just discovered Windows Live Writer that enables the user to write blogs instead of going to the website itself. Lol… I feel mentally slow now. Haha…

2010-01-14T12:19:00.003+08:00

Few more days before returning to the final lap of my degree race. Crucial lap indeed.

Anyways... I've just finished watching the 1st season of The Vampire Diaries. Not too bad although it has lots of similarities to Twilight. Not too many characters/actors to drool over. Lol.. But the soundtrack is surprisingly good. Discovered few songs which are worth indulging into =)

Jason Walker - Down

"I shot for the sky

I'm stuck on the ground

So why do I try, I know I'm gonna fall down

I thought I could fly

So why did I drown?

Never know why it's coming down, down, down.."

Mat Kearney - Here We Go

"Did you close your eyes as you walk away

Did I get too close in the pouring rain

If there's one more chance for us here tonight

I'll take the long way 'round this time..."

Barcelona - Come Back When You Can

"Come back when you can

Let go, you'll understand

You've done nothing at all to make me love you less

So come back when you can..."

Plumb - Cut

"I don't wanna be afraid

I don't wanna die inside just to breathe in

I'm tired of feeling so numb

Relief exists

I find it when I am cut..."

Besides that... one young singer to look out for... Allison Iraheta from American Idol Season 8.

Allison Iraheta - Just Like You

"Roses are dry, Violets are black

And I can be cruel, Just like you

The tables have turned, can't help but laugh

While saying we're through, Just like you..."

2010-01-08T00:09:00.002+08:00

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
But keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard

2010-01-05T17:52:00.004+08:00

And so the New Year has dawned on me. I remember telling a friend that my spontaneous resolution would be to do lesser stupid stuff and to reduce getting myself into stupid situations. But... my spontaneous resolve was broken on the 1st day of New Year's itself by accident.

The last semester is almost here. I'm not ready to head back to my books yet though I have to. Maybe they're the perfect remedy to drown into. Hmm....

I just realised that I do not have many/any plans for this year. But, I have a lot of questions and doubts. Isn't it suppose to be "A New Year, A New Start" kind of thing?? I'm going to stop believing in New Years and in many more things sooner than I think.

2009-12-29T10:11:00.003+08:00

After 2 times of getting similar incidences in the same place.... I conclude that people are just really inconsiderate when they're in a cinema for movies.

Incident 1:
This dumb nut was "nice" enough to put his smelly foot up on the head rest beside my seat. He didn't even take the hint when I kept turning around or when I accidently said out "WTF!!" when I turned and saw his hideous foot. So... this nut deserved a piece of my mind. Lol

Incident 2:
This is the most common situation that is found in the cinema and it's even being mentioned about in the community service messages before movies. It's called "pile-driving and kicking".
Note: "Pile-driving" is when you have some sort of voluntary Parkinson's going on with your leg and you can't stop shaking your leg.

On the other hand.... These people also never expect at all that someone would turn around and scold them for it. It catches them offguard and gets them shamed. So, stupidity might not always be tolerated in the cinema.

***

New Year is coming. I don't really feel like celebrating. I wonder how next year would be for me. Can't tell what is going to happen. There's too many open ended questions. But there is definitely something I'm looking forward to next year. Can't wait to go over to visit and disturb my 2 besties in Perth. Lol... Missing them loads... especially the one who has been MIA-ing for the past few months. Haha...

2009-12-26T11:26:00.002+08:00

And so...the 1st day of Christmas passed. The year is ending soon.... Hmm....

Finally made some progress in my thesis. Although I'm pretty much blanked out of ideas to write but at least I did/write something. The effects of holidays... it just makes me lazier and lazier and more brain dead. Lol...

If only the semester break could last longer than it is now...

Avalanche

2009-12-22T03:35:00.002+08:00

"the ground is shaking from all our mistakes

but there's no one, nothing but us is in our way...

if you only knew, what my heart must do for you

i'm trying to break thru

don't you think it's worth the chance?

let's leave the past, is that too much to ask?

and where do we stand?

can we pull through this avalanche?..."

2009-12-20T00:12:00.002+08:00

Pounding headache. Haven't gotten this in a long time. You know you're in for it when even pain killers don't help.

***

"failing objectives

clouded mind and vision

frequent restlessness

trying, really trying..."

2009-12-15T09:41:00.003+08:00

My room smells of garlic bread..for some weird reason. Lol... Nope, I didn't make garlic bread in my room and neither did I make them in my house. But still the smell lingers and tempt me. Haha...

I'm seriously loving all the free time that I get during this semester break of mine. Lets see.... the last few long semester breaks were spent:

1. 1st long semester break - Working
2. 2nd long semester break - Quitting industrial training and doing student council work

So, they've been pretty boring all the while. But now.... there's always something up every week. Haha... I can't imagine how I'm going to suffer when the next semester starts and everything goes back to the same old stuff. I guess I have to reboot my brains soon to avoid any drowning incident. =p

Then... there's my thesis which has not been touched/moved from what I last wrote few days ago. And I don't even know when I'm needed to hand in the draft. Pfft~!!! I'll probably freak out about it in a few days time when the effect of thinking about it really sinks in.

***

"just don't give up, I'm working it out

please don't give in, I won't let you down

it messed me up, need a second to breathe

just keep coming around..."

crazy mentality

2009-12-06T00:29:00.004+08:00

"You've got to be kidding me right?? I just picked you up not too long ago and now you're falling apart again. How long are we going to do this sort of nonsense? Stop screwing us overboard. Maybe you should stop doing stupid stuff over and over again. Now that would do us both good..."

2009-12-03T19:28:00.002+08:00

Music, music and more music once again =)

Check these songs out...

supernatural and carnivores

2009-11-23T21:59:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna get killed by my cough soon. Like seriously.... Not funny anymore. Sigh... Even after seeing the doctor and taking all the medicine, it's not showing any signs of letting up. This is madness!! I'm waiting for that one day where my lungs will suddenly pop out while I'm coughing.

The previous weeks have been pretty interesting. Had another Wii party, and this time I literally didn't sleep and played all night and attended church the next day and played badminton. I was 100% running on survival mode. Good challenge. But doubt I'll do it again soon.

I watched 2012...finally. To my surprise, that movie still gets fully booked/sold out after 1 week from its release. Well, it was a pretty good movie. Let's hope everyone changes their ways after watching that movie...Not much time left.

Today was a pretty "interesting" day as well. I encountered a possessed car and a carnivorous hamster.

First of all, the possessed car....
I parked my car next to an old kancil car whose alarm went off. After getting down from the car and locking my car, my car actually unlocked on its own after a short while. So I went back and tried locking it again 'cause I thought I accidently pressed the unlock button on the remote. It locked.....and unlocked again after a short while...this time while I'm staring right at that thing!! Then, the alarm went off on its own...and it locked and unlocked again. Then... the possessed kancil's alarm stopped. I tried locking my car door again. And the possessed kancil's alarm went off again, and my car unlocked again in front of my eyes, and my car alarm went off again. So yeah... my only explanation.... some paranormal supernatural stuff going on with the kancil... Thus, it has been known to me as the possessed kancil.

Then...the carnivorous hamster....
I was looking at some hamsters today. I saw this one hamster which looked so cute while its eating 'cause it was conveniently grabbing food by its side and putting it inside its mouth to munch on while its eyes were closed. Then.... I saw his food.... It was half a hamster. It was his USED TO BE BROTHER/SISTER-FROM-ANOTHER-MOTHER&FATHER!!! It was eating another hamster!!! And that dead hamster was already in half with its stomach/guts/blood/whatever showing out and the cute little hamster was grabbing whatever there was to put into its mouth to munch. So... since the sight was kinda disgusting, I told the salesman there about the dead hamster. And.... the dude just looked at the dead hamster, looked back at me, then walked away without doing anything. What an idiot of a lifetime!!! Some cannibal should cannibalize him then he'll know what the dead hamster has gone through. Poor thing....

Check out this song by Josh Groban. I wouldn't have known this if it wasn't for Tim. Lol...

Listen carefully to the beat and where it's coming from. Haha... And Josh Groban's rendition of this song is simply great.

sick of sick

2009-11-12T17:09:00.004+08:00

I've been sick this whole week!!...almost. Yup, started on Monday with the classic fever, cough and flu and then it evolved into being a menace ><

Anyhow, I got forced into seeing a doctor, and got 5 different medicines to eat. Darn!! I extremely hate eating medicine. I'm sure everyone feels the same also unless you are a hypochondriac (go google what it means if you don't know =p). It's even worse when I have to take the medication 2 times within the mere 4/5 hours just so that I will be sober/well enough to make it through the next morning. Yes, it basically revolved around eating some food, take the meds, sleep, wake up, and repeat all over again. Bah~!!

Yes, eventhough I'm a Biomedical Science student, I'm not capable of curing myself. Haha!! Haven't you heard that doctors shouldn't cure/diagnose themselves too?? We plan to overthink the situation. Lol...

Okay, the flu is being a pain in the a** and gives me massive headaches everytime the flu meds wear off. So, time to hit the sacks again....

enjoyable weekends with great company

2009-11-03T15:55:00.017+08:00

Last weekend was so awesome that I'm still thinking about it. Haha...

Saturday : 31st October 2009

I went to The All American Rejects concert that was organized by Digi Music Unlimited. Unfortunately, I'm not a Digi subscriber, but I got in anyways. Hehe... Local bands; Disagree, Pop Shuvit, and One Buck Short; performed as well. Disagree was the opening act, and might I say... THEY WERE FREAKING AWESOME!!! I didn't know they could perform like that. Bravo to our very own Malaysian band. Pop Shuvit and One Buck Short weren't that good. Plus, the lead singer for One Buck Short was in the hospital and didn't perform. So they had invited artists to sing lead for different songs.

Thanks once again to my twin's friend who helped us get the tickets. No regrets going although the crowd went wild when AAR came out... and my car got scratched. Lol.. Everyone were pushing and shoving towards the forward to get a better view of... TYSON RITTER. Haha... Yes. He's so tall in person, and not to mention, hot. Hehe... Totally worth it. So blown away by them.

The stage at an overall view

my twin..hehe (this was before the show started and before we got sandwiched)

Some company that joined us that night

This was our initial standing place..pretty far away from the stage still

Disagree, giving their great performance

Disagree

Pop Shuvit

Just before AAR came out... we got drenched with the slight rain and not to mention, SWEAT!!

And of course, the whole idea of the concert... to see AAR live!!! Especially Tyson Ritter..

Yup, they sure know how to rock the stage and the show

And of course, the day ended with.... jam...

Sunday : 1st October 2009

The usual... had to get my samples ready for Monday and I went for badminton. The highlight of the day was.... pancakes and Wii....

I went with some church friends to Paddington's Pancake House at The Curve for this killer pancake thing... *forgot what it's called =p*

So yeah... 7 of us finished it all. Haha!!

Next on our list was... Wii Party. And... it was hilarious all the way. We couldn't stop laughing at each other. Totally crazy and enjoyable at the same time... It was a great night.

It's All A La Dee Da

2009-10-27T19:15:00.002+08:00

Today... I've gotten some great news about my final year project. Yes!!

I'll be finishing my project earlier than I had expected and my idea to broaden the range of my project is strongly supported by my supervisor. So yeah... great news altogether.

But...

I woke up today with some sort of small blister-like stuff on the fingers of my right hand and they're painful, not itchy. So, finally made the decision to see a doc and found out that it's most probably Contact Dermatitis a.k.a. local allergic response to something which I don't know what it is till now. My fingers on my right hand are a bit stiff now and they feel swollen in the areas with the blisters. Yeesh~!!

Friends came over to my place to hang out for a bit this evening. Had a good time talking about our old school days which we never fail to talk about and laugh so much about. Good times =)

Then... called mom to ask what time she's going to finish work 'cause I wanted to shower. She suggested I shower first then go fetch her right after. So after showering, I dried my hair as fast as I could and then I got a call from my mom. Got scolded for taking so long and making her wait. Went there, and drove home a storm with lightnings and all. Not even a single word/sign of concern about my contact dermatitis. Killed almost my entire day...

it's such a bitter sweet symphony

Job Interview At Different Wavelengths

2009-10-26T22:16:00.003+08:00

I went for a job interview this morning. It was for a general clerical work position. Firstly... the ad stated that it was a PART TIME job. So yeah... I thought it was some sort suitable and called in. And this was what had happened in the interview...

When I got there, I was asked to fill up this particulars form (normal standard procedure - understandable). Then the lady called me in to the office to TEST my skills and knowledge in Microsoft Excel and Microsoft Words and my capability of using a manual type-writer.

After all the TEST was done, I was called into her room to finally proceed on with the INTERVIEW.

I was asked, "Oh...both of your parents are still working. Then why do you want to work?". Hmm... wouldn't that be a stupid question to ask?? Yeah... I should have answered, "I wanna work for fun, peace, laughter and joy." Pfft~!!

Moving on....

I was then compared to an intern. Yeah... The lady offered me the same pay that she wanted to pay interns as ALLOWANCE. Oh wow... I tried explaining that I'm WORKING for her and not INTERNING. She was definitely, without a doubt, on a different wavelength. Here's what she said:

"You know, there are a lot of companies out there that do not pay their interns. But I think it's appropriate to give interns allowances for their expenses and food. So I think RM XXX is appropriate and is within our budget. Can you consider lowering to that? Plus, you will be here for 2 months only and we have to teach you some more. Our time is money also you know?"

Now... do you notice any part of it that relates to me other than the pay?? 'Cause I don't see any. It's bloody ridiculous!!! (refer on top and recall why I say it's ridiculous)

And so, the whole interview revolved around placing me in an intern's position to push down my pay to a point where it's not worth it for that kind and amount of job. What a kill joy.

movies, movies and more movies

2009-10-20T23:43:00.006+08:00

Recently... I've been slightly of a movie addict. Hehe...

I've watched...

And not forgetting....

I think only "State of Play" and "Cloudy With A Chance of Meatballs" was worth watching. Lol... "State of Play" is a pretty good movie I would say. Watch it if you have a chance =)

life, oh life... oh.. life....

2009-10-18T23:01:00.003+08:00

Final Year Project...oh my final year project.... You have kept me so busy everyday...running back to Uni and worrying about you. Sigh... YOU better make it worth my while =P

Now...

I'm a pro in... opening cockrels, chopping and making agar. What the crap!!! This is what happens when you're doing microbio work everyday. I even got used to the bacteria smell.

This final year project is really wearing me out everyday... Not what I'd expect from it. LOL... oh well, it's still good.

***

And here I was pondering... What happened to Rachie... and.... Rachie showed up!!!... online. Hehe..

Geez... everyone's attached now... and I'm still attached to my BOOKS!!! =/ *problem*

Life's so mundane and routined. I need a change in flow and more spontaneity... and get a flexible job which is near impossible. Sigh...

Life, oh life... Oh.. life....

truly psychotic

2009-10-11T20:51:00.004+08:00

Well well well.....

In normal situations, I prefer to remain neutral. But in this case... I think things have gone a little out of hand.

Things to ponder about:

1. If things (squabbles, arguments, miscommunications..etc) are over and done, why not just leave them where they belong? How would it make you look like you're the better person by bitching about it through your blog over and over again?? Or by keeping it at the edge of your mouth?

2. Do you really think that undermining others would make you seem any better? Oh please...

3. Does age really make people wiser than they used to be?
Note: I've seen a couple of cases that may beg to differ

4. Will "manipulation" earn its rightful place in the characteristics of friends?

I truly believe that I know a psycho a.k.a. nutcase a.k.a. cuckoo.

Tsk tsk...

What a low and petty thing you've done...

Beyond help...

Silence is Golden...

Not saying anything or not retaliating does not mean that you've won over and it doesn't mean that we're incapable of doing anything either...

At the end of the day, the beautiful world you've built around you will fall down and you won't even realise it because you're busy doing what....??

You'll be done before you know it

Day 2 of Final Year Project

2009-10-06T00:43:00.003+08:00

I never.... like never... expected it to be this tiring. Like what I told some of the fellas that are working in the same lab as I am, it's as though we're working already. Working a 9am-5pm job with the sharp 1pm lunch break. Haha...

At first, I thought that starting early would give me a head start in working out those 150 samples. But now... I think that there's no other choice but to start early. Yup... I've calculated and I'm running by a very thin thread for this project of mine. Seriously in short of places to get my samples.

By the way... If any of you know any markets in your area that sells cockrels a.k.a. kerang, please let me know. Thank you very much!!

Tomorrow's yet another day of "work". I just finished preparing my samples for tomorrow and I'm sort of tired now but I don't feel like sleeping just yet.

***

To the intelligent individual who so kindly informed me that my brother hates me in my chatbox here in my blog:

You must be some dumba** to think that I don't know that by now. But yeah... thanks for publicly announcing it for me.

to find perfection in my pride

2009-10-02T10:16:00.007+08:00

People go for holidays and trips to destress after the exam...

I... end up doing a whole lot of house chores the whole day ><

So sad... No money to go for holiday and there's a lot of things that I need to do during this holidays. Which reminds me... I need to settle my Visa for next year. It totally slipped my mind. Oh gosh...

Let's see... today.... I planned to do a lot of things yet again =p

To do list for the holidays:

- groom my fat boy
- spend more time with my Jazz 'cause she's always so lonely
- go for a holiday with my doggies
- do my Final Year Project *duh*
- get my Visa done
- get part time job
- clean out my room
- service my car

Probably there's some more that I can't remember now. Haha

***

Throughout this semester, I realise so many important things in life. Yup

Stuff No. 1:
Everyone wants to know you and be your friend when you're so-called popular and well known.
Now why does that always happen? Are people so desperate to become popular and influential? Wouldn't leading a simple and carefree life be enough? Of course, I notice this obvious situation when I was a student leader and when I finally stepped down.

Before, during student council time: Woah...everyone knows your name. You're important for everything, needed for every little petty thing. People just come up and say "Hi" even when you don't know them. Everyone doesn't mind doing favours for you and stuff.

After student council term: No one bothers about you. People who you know and worked with before don't even bother saying "Hi" as they walk pass you. You find that people you thought you were once close to barely talk anymore.

So yeah... I know perfectly clear who are my friends and who are those who were in it for the fame only.

Stuff No. 2:
When you're high up and soaring, everyone just can't wait to bring you back down and bury you six feet under the dirt.

Like I said... during student council time, there's so many people trying to find fault with you. Every thing that you do is wrong in someone's eyes for some brilliant and only they can think of reasons.

After that... No one bothers about what you do anymore. Everything you do is indifferent.

All I can say is... Your time will come sooner than you think. The world revolves and what goes around, comes around.

Stuff No. 3:
The "kiasu bug" was suppose to originate and stay in Singapore only. Then... it infected Malaysia, namely UTAR as well. Even the lecturers noticed... -enough said-

This excerpts from certain songs relates so much to these "stuffs"....

"we're all part of the same sick little games
and I need to get away..."

"taking short cuts and false solutions
just to come out the hero
well I can see behind the curtains
the wheels are cranking turning
it's all wrong the way we're working
towards a goal that's non-existent
it's non-existent but we just keep believing..."

And now from the bottom, I think the view above is just down right ugly. The peacefulness down here is great =)

2009-09-29T22:48:00.002+08:00

And so, there it goes... Goodbye to Year 3 Semester 1....

Of course, a sigh of relief first before anything else... then came the massive headache. *boo~!!*

Anyways, I'm still glad that the my second last finals is over. Let's keep it as my second last still and no more second last finals to come... if you know what I mean. Lol

Although I had my last paper today, I still made time to go for my family dinner on Sunday. Not really 100% what I wanted to do, but yeah, went anyways. All I can say is..."luck" came in for a waitress and one of the restaurant manager. YES!!!

The waitress part of the story....
Have you been to a chinese restaurant and seen the way they clear the dishes off the table when the course is almost done and it's time for dessert? Yeah... they're suppose to be fast but also careful with the dishes 'cause some of the sauce and stuff might spill out. So this smart waitress with full 100% undeniable intelligence just complacently dumped the soy sauce saucer into a bowl and the soy sauce spilled out on my mom's shirt, jeans and pants. Of course, my mom wasn't too happy about it and tried to wipe it off. The best part was...the intelligent waitress just stood there without saying sorry.

So... scolding scene part 1:
I tripped and scolded the waitress as to why she's still standing there and get a wet towel immediately. Yes... the waitress had the blonde "oh it's not my fault" look all over her face which I had every intention to slap for her just standing there.

Now...the manager part of the story:
The dessert came and I noticed something in my bowl. It looked like a worm to me. So I asked my mom and even she said it's a worm. So yeah...I called the manager and told her that there's a worm in the dessert. Once again...another so interestingly intelligent homo sapien. She took the bowl and said, "are you sure? it does look like it but I don't think so it is".

So... scolding scene part 2:
My immediate reply was: *in chinese then* "please open your pair of eyes big and wide and have a proper look". Yeah...the manager didn't even say sorry. Instead, I'm pretty sure she talked about me to her workers just as she turned away from the table. I wonder... haven't she heard that THE CUSTOMER IS ALWAYS RIGHT?! Was a simple sorry so hard to say?? It would have done a lot to make your customers feel better isn't it?

Conclusion is... although the food in that restaurant is alright... Don't go to the Dragon Star Restaurant in PJ. Who knows what else might happen or end up in the food.

miserable pesky pests

2009-09-23T23:21:00.003+08:00

Okay... 1 more paper left to go.

I think... I'm suffering from over-exhaustion or some sort. Not because I always don't get enough sleep. But because I'm using up too much brain power =p

Anyways...

The past few days was a bit of a roller coaster. I planned to study so much earlier and also to finish studying very much earlier to avoid the last minute rush and lack of sleep thing. But.... those "things" just love to come at the "appropriate" time.

Those "things" that I'm talking about are pests a.k.a. bugs a.k.a. "why did God created them" organism. Yes... these "things" decided to somehow try and infest my study table area and started crawling around on my notes, books, laptop...whatever that was on my table. So I was busy killing those miserable pests one by one as I see them. Then, I keep getting concious about those pests crawling around my table...gives me an uneasy feeling. There I was spending hours literally HUNTING them down and KILLING them.

Finally.... I found the source of the problem. There was this dead bug that died on its own somehow, behind the books on the rack. So the miserable pesky pests came from there. And of all the books they stayed in, they chose non other than.... HAEMATOLOGY!! They really are just darn right miserable.

Bottom line is...

Miserable pesky pests: 0 , Pearly: 1

By the way.... Hope you people out there like this song... Hehe...

Manage me, I'm a mess

Turn a page, I'm a book

Half unread

I wanna be laughed at,

Laughed with, just because

I wanna feel weightless

And that should be enough

Well I'm stuck in this f***ing rut

Waiting on a second hand pick me up

And I'm over, getting older

If I could just find the time

Then I would never let another day go by

I'm over, getting old

Maybe it's not my weekend,

But it's gonna be my year

And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere

And this is my reaction

To everything I fear

Cause I've been going crazy I don't wanna waste another minute here

template change

2009-09-19T10:59:00.003+08:00

Finally, I have taken the time that I should not have taken to change my blog template. After for don't know how long I've been using the last one, I've decided to change it. Yeah...the whole not changing it before was because I'm a complete noob in doing the CSS thingy. Seriously haven't looked too much into it to know how it works yet.

By the way... If you don't see your blog link that was there in the "link" panel as it was previously, please let me know and I'll add it back. I've lost all my blog links since I changed the template 'cause it conveniently deleted everything, including the chatbox. Only managed to recover some. So yeah... much appreciated.

And so... 2 more miserable papers to go. I'm glad the university didn't decide to cancel off the exam yesterday 'cause of our Deputy Prime Minister's sudden decision to give an extra day of holiday to all educational institutions and schools. Or else.... I would scream the whole damn day and probably start throwing my notes/books/whatever.

I feel like.... watching a movie!! But... I've got obligations. Sigh... always the same obligations...study.

Well...no one will be home tonight except me. Sad and lonely night... *sob sob*. Nah... you know what I'm going to do with that time. Yes... STUDY!! *yeesh*

Oh yeah... I so think that All Time Low's song titled "Break Your Little Heart" is such a cruel but fun and nice song. Haha... Why?? Read the lyrics...

"I'm gonna break your little heart,
watch you take the fall,
laughing all the way to the hospital
'cause there's nothing surgery can do,
when I break your little heart in 2..."

2009-09-18T23:04:00.002+08:00

Sigh...good songs are so my weakness =)

Here's some that I really can't get enough of..

Some new songs... =D

The band All Time Low is a great band by the way... Lol

Sigh...good songs....

2009-09-14T20:51:00.003+08:00

Fuh~!! Finally 2 papers down. Now 3 more to go.

And I'm still not over the stupid MM!!! Argh~!!! Ok...moving on....

Ok... So you know how your reflexes are supposed to be better when you play badminton often? Yeah, my reflexes have hyped a little. But not really in getting the shots. It's more of avoiding the incoming shuttle when I'm partnering a certain someone. Even if that would be an easy shot for me. It is vital to avoid or not I will get some-one crashing into me. I almost got crushed 2 times yesterday. And so I have learned my lesson.

Hmm... I actually thought of quite a bit of things to blog about today. But... I sort of lost them.

So here's the end of the post =p

2009-09-08T19:26:00.002+08:00

Crazy days it has been ...@.@... Studying from day till night with little going in. Oh...the madness. Can't wait till the exams are over to start doing my final year project. I desperately need a change in the things that I do.

Also...contemplating whether or not to go Youth Camp this year. Lots to consider...grr~!! So...undecided. So... fickle minded. Sigh... 2 of the most undesirable traits coming together just for 1 event.

Back to damaging the brains...

2009-09-03T15:38:00.002+08:00

I wonder...why is my health problematic at times. Lol...

I was down and ALMOST out thanks to the stupid diarrhea yesterday. And it has managed to crawl its way through to today as well. Don't know what I ate that cause it, but it's pretty bad. Never have I had diarrhea to the point where I'm immensely weak and whatever I eat comes back out either way. So it wasn't really a pretty sight at all. Think I'm gonna go see a doc today or something if this prolongs. I'm extremely MALNOURISHED right now!!!

Although the diarrhea episode ALMOST got the best of me, I still went out with my church friends. It's been so long since I've had dinner with them since we don't attend youth group anymore and I'm missing from church most of the time. Haha!! *ahem*... Sinner la. Not good. Will repent from now on. But I'm definitely missing the days where we hang out almost every week. Now's not too bad either... we go for dinner once in a while... go for trips every year... have barbeques. Lol..

Dinner was great although I couldn't eat much. Pastor Simon's son is super cute!! He's got a way of looking at people too. He has like this on off switch for crying that turns on when others carry him and turns off when his dad carries him. Lol... Hillarious.

Anyways... we made a spontaneous decision to go for a movie too. Watched "I Love You, Beth Cooper". Rather predictable story line I would say... But the movie isn't bad. It's worth a watch 'cause it's quite funny. The main actor looks super nerdy and geeky. Bravo to the dude!!

One things for sure.... after the many weeks of studying and burying my head into my books, yesterday was a big time off for me. In fact, I decided to sleep in today till I woke up at 11.25am thanks to my mom's phone call. I feel like sleeping some more... =p

2009-08-30T23:28:00.002+08:00

I..... almost fainted in badminton today!! Sigh...

Lesson learned...
Eat before going for badminton.

I went with an empty stomach today 'cause I just woke up from a nap and I wasn't feeling hungry. It didn't cross my mind at that time that Roti Canai can't last me from breakfast till dinner. Especially when I'm going to play all out in badminton. This is really a lesson I learned the hard way. Lol...

I need time to pass faster. Hehe... My most awaited time is finally coming true. Muahahaha!!!

2009-08-26T20:55:00.002+08:00

I feel..... tired and sleepy. And I barely did anything today. Other than playing badminton in the morning almost non-stop for 2 hours.

Now, I'm counting the days till my left knee gives way. Whee~!!

Urgh... all the studying. I'm sick and tired of studying. The stupid long break is making me lazy and lethargic. This is so not good...

society gone to the dogs

2009-08-20T15:02:00.002+08:00

Seriously... I think some people nowadays are either just plain idiots or they're born retarded.

Because of this retarded person who has the H1N1 virus and still walked around campus without a mask, 1 of my friend got it. And who knows how many of them are like him... know they have it but still go "FREESTYLING" and gladly "SHARING" it with everyone. Now, part of my batch of Biomedical Science students are being quarantined.

How shameful it is to say... the fella who paraded around with the H1N1 virus is a Biomedical Science senior. That person is so not qualified to call himself a Biomedical Science student...as quoted by Dr. Soon. Being in the medical field, you'd think the person would be smart enough to take the necessary precautions to prevent it from spreading to others. But no... he decided his bloody education is more important than the lives of other people. So there you go...

In fact, in normal days even, people should be wearing masks if they have cough or flu. This is to avoid "SPREADING" and "BLESSING" others with their beloved viruses. But we don't see it here in our so CIVILIZED country.

And there's some serious problem and negligence in the way the management and nation is handling this medical emergency. They shouldn't call it an emergency... they should call it a walk in a park instead. Not a single freaking staff bothers to wear mask at all. And the government... their so called emergency unit or whatever unit that was put together for this Influenza A endemic is not even efficient. They don't even know how to differentiate between a virus and the damn flu.

For your info... A H1N1 is the bloody virus ok?! Not the flu. And one very SMART doctor even said that A H1N1 stands for "America Hemisphere North" because the virus came from the Northen Hemisphere of America. What bullshit is that?! They have got to pull back that doctor's licence man. Disgrace to the medical practitioning field.

2009-08-16T01:56:00.002+08:00

I'm just frustrated today... Yup, that's my mood for the day.

Woke up to doing housework..... Not so bad
Then have to continue studying Haematology..... Not so bad either

Missed out on MTV World Stage..... Now that's SHIT FRUSTRATING!!!
All American Rejects, Boys Like Girls and Hoobastank was here. ARGH~!!!!!

egg day

2009-08-12T19:05:00.004+08:00

Like argh~!!!!

I know why the results turned out that way. And... Sorry to have disappointed my lecturer who expected me to get higher. Sigh... Will strive to do better next week. Yes~!!!

Today's test was.... Ridiculous. Although the "chances" were given, but I agree with Richard, it's better to be true to ourselves and admit to those that we really do not know. Or else, how do we learn from mistakes?

Before leaving campus, the Engineering Society had this game called Save The Egg or something along that line. The whole point of the game is to create a carrier made out of paper that will be able to protect the egg from breaking since they're gonna throw it off the highest floor of the bioscience lab building.

So, as expected, there were lots of hillarious moments where the eggs just went *splat!!*. Some showed potential in "Saving" the egg, but it cracked still. I didn't stick around to see which group won though. But the sight of that game was so funny that it attracted quite a number of people to watch the eggs fall off the building one at a time.

On the way back home, I saw a lorry literally turned sideways. Like it's laying on it's side. God knows how it ended up that way. But the best part was.... it was carrying a lorry full of.... EGGS!!! Eggs sunny side up?? Oh wait... I mean lorry sunny side "SIDE"??

Ok... no more fooling around, although I haven't really fooled around much. Finals is just around the corner. And before I know it, it will be right in front of me to slap me in the face for being lazy.

2009-08-09T08:50:00.002+08:00

I'm so waiting for this show to come out in...October I think. So hillarious. It's something like the movie "Shaun of the Dead".

2009-08-08T14:47:00.005+08:00

I was helping out in my dad's shop yesterday. Some college students came over and wanted to print their work. So, I was trying to help out by searching for the file from their pendrive...

And I saw.... A WHOLE FREAKING LOAD OF PORN IN THE PENDRIVE!!! What the nonsense~!!! At least have some decency to delete it or transfer it elsewhere 1st. And they were so cool and collected about it...

Just speechless....

***

I think that this song is very meaningful... If you know how to interpret the song properly =)

One Republic - Come Home

This song is quite nice too.. Hehe...

The All American Rejects - I wanna touch you

of Tenji and unfortunateness

2009-08-06T17:50:00.021+08:00

Today after class..... Tenji Japanese Buffet Restaurant

The drinks look awfully nice right? Taste it for yourself before making that judgement. Haha...

Chocolate fountain. I could smell the chocolate from where we were sitting...which wasn't far. Probably 'cause I was very hungry when we got there. Lol

Muachi~!!

Carlsberg.... Mmmmm~~

"Pseudo" Carlsberg fella

I think... Edna is harrassing Amelia. Haha!!

If only... I could sit down in here and drink one fine day

reflection

Severe Boredom

2009-08-05T15:46:00.011+08:00

This is a case of severe boredom.

It took place today during Instrumentation lecture and during Pathology lecture. This is what happened....

Note: Fill in the blanks for the story yourself XD

Can you guess where was this graffiti drawn??.....

It was on none other then..... Amelia's polystyrene food box!!

This was what we learned in Pathology today....

And also this....

For more info about the SALE... please visit this website: http://www.dream-on.com/EBNA's_bra

Sorry, we're unable to emphasize the "important" words as the notes is still needed.

This is what happens when we get very bored in lectures... Apart from sleeping anyways.

2009-08-02T02:28:00.014+08:00

I'm suppose to be sleeping now. But since I just finished studying, I decided to blog a little. Hehe~!!

I just got my camera. Wuhoo~!!
I bought the A1100 instead of the A2100. Although the prices were cheaper than usual, I still decided to go for the A1100. I don't think the A2100 is worth the extra RM100. Haha!!

Anyways, here it is....
Sorry la. Only manage to snap a pic of the box. Not logical to snap a pic of my camera with the same camera right? Lol

After that, of course, I test run my new camera. Hehe....

Sprite.... Not a drink that I like. Just so happen that I was itching to snap a pic of something =P

And then I tested it on the all time model in my house. Haha!!

"Whatcha lookin' at huh? Want me to bite you??"

And some of the stuff from my birthday. Yeah I know, it's been a month already... So what?!

Sorry...content not to be revealed (inside joke). Haha!!!

Besides that.... my dad decided to give me something to snap too XD

Note: I didn't ask me dad to do it. He was the one that said, "eh...faster take, faster take". =p
Ok. That's all the pictures I have for now.

Lesson learned: Loading the pictures now takes almost a lifetime. So yeah...will only put up pics when I really have the time and not burning sleeping time.

2009-07-30T11:53:00.005+08:00

Of all the interesting things we saw...this is the real deal. Haha...

This is what you get when you park your car illegally in KTAR grounds. Since I'm sure they don't bother to get a proper tyre clamp, they use thick chains instead. They'll just chain up your tyres to the thing that is behind your tyres.

Lesson is... Don't park in KTAR parking area when you don't have their proper parking sticker. Trust me...faking them won't help either 'cause they've got down all the car plate numbers that actually have the sticker. So yeah, don't make such "smart" moves.

In one of the cars, the friends of the driver were still sitting comfortably in the car while waiting for the driver to pay the fine. And guess what? They had the decency to hon us when we were looking at the cars and taking pic of those that got chained up, and laughed in the car. Well... I think that it's funnier when they're sitting in a car which you know can't move at all and the tyre is well chained up. And... they didn't even bother to follow their friend to go pay the fine what-so-ever. Kudos to that.

Now... I'm waiting to get my camera on Saturday. Hehe... Finally going to get one. Still thinking and contemplating between 2 models though.

The Canon Powershot A1100

Or...

The Canon Powershot A2100

Obviously the price differs quite a bit. But still... Hmm.... Oh well, we'll see how it goes on Saturday.

FINALE

2009-07-26T23:22:00.004+08:00

Thursday....

That was the day of the BIG Toxicology Presentation. And I think we nailed the presentation good. All went well, except that we didn't have time to draw a conclusion. But I think overall it was still good. Seeing that neither me or Richard read from the slides and also me crapping too much till I presented past my own time frame.

I almost got caught by Dr. Wong's question that was directed to me.

"what is the common point of the 3 case studies; on Melamine poisoning, Boric acid poisoning and Botulinum toxin poisoning?"

Hehe....luckily I thought fast enough to avoid being trapped by that question.

The answer is.... "Melamine and Boric acid are non-toxic to living organisms at low doses. But at high doses, they become toxic. BUT for Botulinum toxin, it's poisonous even at very low doses and it shouldn't be found in any food at all."

So, that wraps up the one and only presentation that I have for this semester. 2 more assignments coming up soon.

Friday....

Another BIG day for me. The day that I officially step down and handover all my responsibilities and duties.

The thing was.... I played badminton in the morning. And I sort of went all out during my badminton session since I was constantly asked to do the running to cover the court. So, I was more or less wiped-out of energy already. But... I still rushed for the SRC Handover Ceremony. How could I ever miss that?? Haha...

So, my "sharing" a.k.a. crapping session went well.... according to the "audience". Haha!! My last time to crap during my speech time. Even the UTAR officials were laughing and smiling at me the whole way. I can't help it.... But it was good to see some of the officials that were there 'cause they have been rather supportive of me throughout my term.

I got a nice shiny and mirror-like token of appreciation. Hehe...another item to add to my collection of medals and awards.

The after-dinner with some of the ex-SRC members was fun. We had steamboat. Although the wait for the place was a bit long, but it was worth the wait. The sight of them strategizing to get the chicken wings were quite hillarious. And of course, as usual, we had our "notorious" moments of jokes as well.... compliments of Mr. Ivan Ooi.

Those days with the ex-SRC members are really unforgettable. Hope that we'll have a gathering again before we all graduate. And such coincedence, almost all of us will be graduating the same time. Haha!! Apparently, Ms. Sum is already thinking of planning something special for our convocation since we're all graduating the same time. Hehe.... We'll see what happens.

Definitely missing the good old days now. But... it doesn't mean that now isn't good either. I'm slowly enjoying the peacefulness that comes from relieving my roles and responsibilities as a Student Rep. Now... I'm taking the time to do things that I've always wanted to do. So.... sorry to those who were planning to ask me to join their organizing committee for any events. I prefer the freedom now. Hehe...

2009-07-22T15:12:00.002+08:00

Pathology test.... Stupid test. Study all, know all and remember all also did no good. Just 1 question toppled everything over. Argh~!!! &%$#@*^%

Frustrated....

Although I had to study for Pathology today, I had good night sleeps for the past few nights. No staying up late and all. Hehe... Have to get started soon for yet another Haematology test. See how nicely arranged my tests are?? That I have to study every day of every week!! No break at all.

Next up, presentation tomorrow. And I will be presenting. I have not prepared anything yet.... Sigh. Am not in the mood now to do it. Still haven't bounce back from my stupid Pathology test fall. Crap.

Okay....deviation from dull schmull studies....

For the past 2 weeks, I have attended 2 wedding dinners. Haha... July must be some auspicious month to get married. More like to lose your singles' freedom pass =P But.... the wedding dinners actually made me think of how I want my wedding to be in the future....more or less. BUT.... I have not thought of marriage yet. Neither have I thought of getting attached so soon. Unless the right person decides to stumble by. Haha!!!!

I don't know but
I think I maybe
Falling for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting till I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm falling for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm falling for you
I'm falling for you...

Awaiting SRC Handover Ceremony on Friday. And I have finally made it to the end of the line.... =)

2009-07-17T16:23:00.002+08:00

Transformers was amazing!! It totally blew me away with all the super cool looking graphics. Sorry... I just love graphics. Haha!!

The story line was sort of predictable. I could tell what was actually going to happen. But still... the graphics was very good. Definitely a must watch.

2009-07-14T19:28:00.002+08:00

Today is the super uber crazy day with 1 test and 1 quiz in it. I was already on a streak of insomnia until I got to break out of it yesterday. So....of course, I took the opportunity to sleep as much as I can to avoid zombie-ing around.

Obviously, the break of the insomnia pattern came at the wrong time. Just when I need to stay up and put in extra effort to study, I keep wanting to sleep. And so I went....to la~la land. And... that cost me my Toxico quiz. It was an either or situation. I so hope that days like that would never come again. Especially for FINALS!!!

Now, it's mostly preparation for presentation.

But before that....

I have to get everything in order for the Charity Presentation Ceremony this Saturday. There's so many things left to be done...at least I think and feel so. On top of that, I have to write 2 speeches to submit by end of this week. Argh~!!!

I got to comfort myself that this is the last 100m of the race. Got to suck it up. *sob sob*

2009-07-10T22:02:00.002+08:00

This week was.... *speechless*

Anyways, the Haemato test was a bit nutty. Made me a little nutty studying it too. Now, got to prep up for another 2 tests. *blegh*

And....additional presentation to prepare for. Thanks to.... my sista. Now I'm supposed to get an iTouch for presenting for the assignment. Hehe...

p.s my dear sista-from-anotha-mother: actually I already thought of presenting cause you did most of the researching and compiling. So, I wanted to do something to make up and contribute to our group. But the iTouch is EXTRA MOTIVATION. haha!!! THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!

Besides that....

I haven't gotten much sleep nowadays. It's either I'm busy with study stuff that I lack the time to sleep. Or... I'm free but I just can't seem to fall asleep. And even when I'm so called "asleep", I keep waking up and get very restless. Thus, I have been zombie-ing around for a few days now. And finally yesterday, when I finally felt sleepy I quickly rushed to bed and just slept till this morning. That was how desperate I was for some sleep...

Now...to study for my test and hope that I'll get sleepy soon and sleep again =P

2009-07-06T00:31:00.002+08:00

The time to say "sorry" has come and gone long ago.

Now...

The time to even say "Hi" is slipping by

2009-07-05T11:20:00.003+08:00

Now I realise... It takes me a freaking long time to study even 1 stack of Haematology notes!! ><

I have every intention to change Greenday's song....

"as my memory rests,
but never forget what I've read
wake me up
when semester ends...."

Undo

2009-07-04T17:49:00.002+08:00

I've been here before
And here I am again
Standing at the door
Praying you'll let me back in

To label me
A prodigal would be
Only scratchingthe surface
Of who I've been known to be

Turn me around
Pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You're the only one
Who can undo what I've become

I focused on the score
But I could never win
Trying to ignore
A life of hiding my sins

To label me
A hypocrite would be
Only scratching the surface
Of who I've been known to be

Turn me around
Pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You're the only one who can undo what I've become

2009-07-02T00:58:00.002+08:00

Very big thanks to my friends who have taken the time to throw me a small party today. Really appreciate it and enjoyed our cake/cream fight although I was the main victim. But yeah, it was great for me. Them taking their time to be there and start the fight...Lol...and then spending the whole day searching for 1 stupid company and then walking aimlessly in Pyramid and finally ended up watching a movie. Especially when they have classes tomorrow and all.

SUPER BIG THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS!!!

Thanks for the present from my sista-from-anotha-motha, Edna; and Aggie. And also the card that was written with loads of "nice and interesting messages" from Kok Hau, Ryh Shin, Seng Ru, Zhi Ling, Shen Chie and Kok Sheng.

By the way, it took me 2 times of scrubbing to fully and completely remove the cream from my hair, since I got double dose of it. And...it still smells of the cream till now. So it smells awful!! Think I'm going to wash it again tomorrow morning or something. Haha!!

And of course.... Thank you to all my friends who wished me through smses, calls and also through facebook.

It was a great day indeed.... =)

end of the walk

2009-06-30T01:07:00.003+08:00

I really have the sign "PLEASE FRAME ME" on my forehead.

I got blamed for something I didn't do, twice today. I'm highly, 100% sure, that I didn't do it...either of it. But somehow, all the fingers still point back to me for some reason. And at the end of the day I'm owning up to and saying sorry for something that I'm so sure it wasn't my fault, in hopes that it will make things better.

And yeah, I've changed. I don't know in what way myself...seeing as I'm the owner of this mind, heart and soul. But if people insists that I've changed, then I have nothing to say.

Yeah,....
I don't let people walk over me now. I learn to stand up for myself.

Yeah,....
I worry a whole lot about my education than my student council work now.

Yeah,....
I can't stand people scolding me unneccessarily, especially when I can avoid it.

Yeah,....
I say sorry for the things that I did not do.

You're right. I have changed.

At the end of this walk, no doubt I still love my committees to bits no matter what happened before, but...
To all my committees,
I'm sorry that I was an uncapable leader and failed in performing my duties. Truly sorry.

2009-06-27T02:57:00.002+08:00

R.I.P. to Michael Jackson. No matter what people have said about him or charged him for, he'll always be the legendary King of Pop. His songs have always been impactful to people's lives and they will always be.

The final bid goodbye to the King of Pop. No one can fill in those shoes.

I'm still contemplating on what to do for my final year. Argh~!!! Can't seem to make up my mind on 1 thing. So, here I am stuck with making a decision for my future.

And....I think time really changes a person. That one person that I've recently met up with has changed in a lot of ways. And the change is for the better although some things still remains the same.

*yawns* Lights out, bed time. Super sleepy now....

2009-06-26T00:06:00.003+08:00

I think this is a very good song that stands up for abused women.

How Come, How Long ~ Babyface

There was a girl I used to know

She was oh so beautiful

But she's not here anymore

She had a college degree

Smart as anyone could be

She had so much to live for

But she fell in love

With the wrong kind of man

He abused her love and treated her so bad

There was not enough education in her world

That could save the life of this little girl

How come, how long

It's not right, it's so wrong

Do we let it just go on

Turn our backs and carry on

Wake up, it's too late

Right now, we can't wait

She won't have a second try

Open up your hearts

As well as your eyes

She tried to give a cry for help

She even blamed things on herself

But no one came to her aid

Nothing was wrong as far as we could tell

That's what we'd like to tell ourselves

But no, it wasn't that way

So she fell in love

With the wrong kind of man

And she paid with her life

For loving that man

So we cannot ignore

We must look for the signs

And maybe next time

We can save somebody's life

I on occasion met that guy

He stirred up bad feelings deep inside

Something about him wasn't right

The way he proved himself a man

By beating his woman with his hands

Oh I wish she'd seen the light

How can someone like that

Call himself a man

In reality he's far more less than that

And we cannot ignore

Whenever we see the signs

Cause any kind of abuse

God knows isn't right

2009-06-21T22:12:00.002+08:00

When is this all going to end??.... Although I'm able to take it all in, but I'm human too right? Oh wait...I remember, I'm made of steel and have no feelings. Right, that's it. Ok...go ahead and keep framing me. I "ENJOY" it so damn much.

Just when I'm loosening my grip on things, they flip. Nice. Time for more alco... Time to go back to the old ways again.

Don't feel like sleeping tonight. But I think the slight alcohol is helping. Gonna drown in journals and toxicology now...

dumb mental lecturer

2009-06-15T19:33:00.004+08:00

I seriously have 1 lecturer who is mental!!!

First, she asks us for comments and feedback about her teaching and etc. And, she SAID that she won't fail us what-so-ever based on what we say. After a moment of silence and no one dares to say anything... She said, "No matter what you all say, I already have my justifications."

WTF!! So what is the whole point of asking us the dumb question and wasting our time? Oh right...the whole point was to WASTE OUR TIME!!!

throwing phone at wall temptation

2009-06-14T23:22:00.003+08:00

I almost threw my phone at the wall just now. Why? 'Cause messages can't seem to stop coming in. Just when I want to concentrate to do my report, the phone keeps buzzing of messages coming in. And, I lose my train of thoughts for what to write.

Now you know, that you shouldn't sms me when I'm doing my work or else I'll end up getting awfully frustrated and I might just blow up.

Yes, I need some anger management classes now. All my "ganas-ness" is coming back.

Note: If you sms me at night and find that the message can't get through, then you'll know that I've switched off my phone.

Now At The End

2009-06-14T00:33:00.002+08:00

My term as Student Council Chairman is coming to an end. There's like few weeks left to it. More precisely... 2 more weeks, then I'll be acting Chairman only. Hmm...there's sort of a mixed feeling in this matter. Well, I got to do what I got to do. And after this...I'm not wanted anymore. Haha!! Back to mundane life after that.

Now, at the end of this road....

Can I say that I've done my best?
Can I say that I've achieved something during my term?
Can I say that I've learned lots?
Can I say that I've become a better person from all this?

Have things made me wiser?
Have they made me smarter than before?

Did I do what was needed and expected of me?
Did I accomplish what I started out to achieve?

With all that...

I'm just hoping that...

I'll be able to hear the sound of applauses as I take a bow from my final scene.

2009-06-11T15:48:00.004+08:00

I can't believe it. It's a miracle I tell you.

I remember being dead bored in Haematology on Tuesday although I did jot down my own notes and stuff. Surprisingly, I can remember what the lecturer taught on Tuesday and answered the question she asked us in class today although I haven't revised yet.

***

I think that it's really not cool to make use of your friends to do/get something that you want. Oh wait...that doesn't top the list yet. What's right on top is... making use of your friends to get your stuff done and that friend has to suffer some negative effects from your doing.

No...no...no... this is not something that I'm willing to tolerate.

2009-06-10T22:55:00.004+08:00

Fuh~!! I doubt I'll need to go see the doc about my not-so-obedient stomach. Now, I just need to go on a minimal chilli diet. Sigh... I've always liked to eat chilli. Oh well, it's either that or my stomach will really corrode till it has a hole in it.

And...the heat has definitely gotten to some of us....

Here's Chia doing stupid stuff again...trying to look like a nerd.

Besides that, nothing much happened over the past few days. Been trying to catch up with studies although it has only been 2 weeks.

And.... I've finally conversed with the French students that are doing research in our campus. Of course, all thanks to Richard for initiating the conversation. Now, let us see it go from there. Lol.

Meanwhile, I have plenty of work to be done and yet I'm still blogging. Haven't started studying yet when I keep telling myself I will. I'm going to get exophthalmus soon from reading proposals, rules and regulations and notes!!!

Note: exophthalmus = protruding eyes / eyes that looks like they're going to pop out

Screwed up digestive system

2009-06-06T23:05:00.003+08:00

My digestive system is seriously screwed up. Trust me, constant indigestion is not funny. My stomach seems to have a mind of its own. It loves to dance around, topple and flip over after every meal, which causes the host (me) to feel darn sick that I might just turn pale instantly.

Nagging from the parents isn't helping either. Not when they're trying to out-smart me in my own field of study by feeding me wrong theories.

***

I think....

I'd just love to settle for a little less complication in my life. After all the big hoo-haa's for the past year or so, I'm looking forward to simplicity which is suppose to come soon.

2009-06-05T00:24:00.002+08:00

I simply can't get enough of this show!!! The dance moves are awesome and so effortless.

Although the story line is not really that good, but I simply love the dancing.

Note: Reveal of Pearly's secret #1 - loves to dance...why? 'cause I can't dance.

2009-06-03T23:26:00.002+08:00

First academic week has came and is almost gone.

This semester...might leave me speechless at the end.

I thought last sem was bad. This sem is equally bad when I have 1 of the same lecturer as the previous sem. All-in-all, I have 5 subjects this sem, not including my final year project.

Here are the brief summary of my 5 lecturers:

Lecturer A: Loves to give a lot of notes, speeds through the teaching and expects us to know and remember every damn thing.

Lecturer B: Awfully nice and funny. And I've known him since I was in form 4!! Incredibly smart and witty fella and very understanding 'cause he knows that it's impossible to remember/memorise everything that is being taught throughout the semester.

Lecturer C: Looks....grumpy. Totally strict and crazy. And...whose teaching is a natural sleeping pill because it's called READING and it's so monotonous!!

Lecturer D: Doesn't look at all professional but people are paying him big bucks apparently to get him to comment on their works/stuff. Rather sane and logical person as well...

Lecturer E: Good LORD!! I can't understand a single word that comes out from that fella's mouth.

So yes.

And yes...I forgot to mention. My results for last semester was pretty unexpected. I thought so long and in every way of how I could pass even 1 of the subjects, but I couldn't find a reason apart from the lecturer must be crazy.

But...I passed all my subjects. No D's too. So it's good news. I don't care about those who're getting very much higher than me. With the amount of things that I need to do, I'm highly thankful for my results.

p.s. different courses have different levels of difficulty and i happen to be in 1 of the rather difficult courses. so don't compare me or my results with business students. that would be utter stupidity

2009-05-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

And here comes the near finale of semester break. Blegh~!! This reminds me that I haven't done much actually. Mostly doing SRC stuff and also lazing around...and TRYING to lose weight. Minimal succession.

Orientation is almost over too. This has got to be the biggest amount of students I've seen for May orientation. Turn up was quite good for admin briefing, mass call and Welcome Freshmen Concert. Tomorrow will be the ice breaking session. So far I heard that I'm going to get drenched by the committee. Hmm.... We'll see what happens tomorrow. Lol.

But... I think this orientation has its own share of surprising incidents. Lol.. It has been good no doubt. Other than the spastic-like speakers...others are definitely fine.

Fuhh~!! Now entering Final Year a.k.a. Year 3!!

2 more events to go before I officially step down. Hoping that I can make them as memorable as possible.

THIS HAS GOT TO BE ONE OF THE HOTTEST SEASONS I HAVE EXPERIENCED!!!

2009-05-25T11:10:00.003+08:00

Woah...final week of the so called holidays. The miserable 2 and half weeks just flashed by with me doing practically nothing. Yay!!

I seriously need to slap myself to make myself believe that I'm going into Year 3!! Final year!! Oh no!! How did I come so far?? Hmm.... actually when I was in 1st year, I never thought of making so far. I thought I was going to give up somewhere in Year 2 when it gets tough and when reality bites me in the neck. But... the journey continues....

Hmm... I think on and off, we do need to take a look back. Look at where we came from and how far we've gotten now. Learn from the past to make sure that we never repeat any stupidities (as quoted from a friend). And I do realise that I've come quite a long way. Heck...I didn't even think I would become Chairman of the Student Council for my own campus. So, it's a pretty big leap for me.

Now that my term as chairman is almost over, I guess I wouldn't do anything to change things even if I had the chance to go back and change things. No doubt, there are bitter sweet moments. But all-in-all, the experience was great. From getting to know more people, finding new friendships to gaining experiences in so many things that classes could never have thought. Of course, it gave me a chance to get a taste of the harsh reality of working life. Duh...

Well, I hope I did good for my term in the eyes of my campus' students. I can safely say that I did the best I could to help make a change in my own campus.

In 2 years time, I went from a person who stepped into the uni that doesn't want anything else but to just study and be a nerd...to a person who went all out to strive for changes. And of course, I did what I KNOW is right. Not what I THINK is right. So yeah...there you go. Of course, I had added pressure and stress too!! Everyone knows how to complain about us not doing anything. Then who's going to make up for all my added pressure and stress? And failings? Crap...

Besides all the junk above....

Kris Allen won!!!

Yes, I believe he deserves every bit of it no matter what other people say that Adam Lambert should've won.

2009-05-18T23:34:00.006+08:00

Just some pics from the previous day trip to Gold Coast Sepang, a.k.a. Crab Land.

And the rest can't be uploaded thanks to blogger for jamming up everytime I try to upload a photo.

2009-05-15T11:24:00.006+08:00

Oh sweet holidays....with nothing better to do.

To update from Tuesday...

Right after our last paper (the finale), and after getting all our stuff done in Uni, Edna and myself went for a movie in 1u. For starters, we have no clue what movie to watch because we're so outdated with what movie is out and all. By looking at the list of movies in GSC, we finally decided on "Coming Soon". It was entirely MY FAULT!!! I initially thought it was an English film, made in the US or whatever and it wouldn't be that scary. I only heard that it was a horror film... To our wonderful amazement, it was a freaking THAI HORROR FILM!!! I screwed both of us over!!! Oh what the....

Anyways, we sat through the movie. Edna was braver than me...showing her Exophthalmus (protruding eyes) while watching and me using my jacket to cover half of my vision. 1st time ever I'm watching a Thai horror film and the VERY VERY LAST!! Especially in a cinema. And guess what? The movie is based on a vengeful spirit haunting the cinema. What COINCIDENCE!!! So yeah, we scared the crap out of ourselves. Lucky for us, we're too tired on that day that we just fall straight to sleep at night without thinking back about the movie.

***

We took a road trip on Wednesday... To Gold Coast Sepang and then detoured off to Port Dickson for a while. I can't remember how many left turns we took that day. We named it the "Left Turn Day". It took us forever to reach Gold Coast Sepang. And the very smart me, skipped breakfast. I literally starved all the way there till I gave up and surrendered to Chicken Rice. Well, it could have been worse. I gave ideas such as sticking our heads out the window to EAT AIR and things like eating grass

Someone... was busy screaming in Gold Coast Sepang because she's afraid of CRABS!!! All the tiny little crabs!! It was pretty interesting, to me at least, at how many crabs there were around. And the water was rather far away 'cause it's low tide. It's not like Port Dickson where the water is always quite far up.

Besides the place being windy 'cause it's a seaside, there's nothing special about it. You can't go into the water unless you want to walk for a distance out towards the water. It's a long walk...trust me. Although it looks near (yeah, just keep telling yourself that it's near to make yourself feel better).

And who would've thought, that I'd be all the way there to tell a kid to "Shut the F*** up". Yeah, I did. What good would it do to him to keep calling out to us to go near to him?? Would it land him free sex at such an age? I doubt that his hormones are even rising at that age. So yeah, my advice to that kid would be.... Get a dick 1st before calling out to girls that way. (I can't help it. The truth always hurt. That's life)

Reality check: Gold Coast Sepang is a rebrand of MORIB BEACH!!! Wake up people!!!

***

Met up with Grace yesterday. Talked about some ol' time stuffs and life and uni. Simply amazing how we can still remember things that's happen. Oh wait...that's 'cause they're all the stuff that happened during the "black period". Who wouldn't remember? I'll remember it for the whole world. And yes, I agree, that once bitten, twice shy. I'll remember it enough to know that I probably won't find forgiveness now for those people who're involved.

I try to forgive but it's not enough to make it all ok

Other than that, for those sibuk people who still think that I might still be hooked to the past idiot, sorry to say... I'm over and done and moved on long time ago. My head's in the future now, not the past. Reminiscing the past will only teach me what I should do in the future.

Some times I really don't understand. What is the whole point of trying to hide and avoid? Is the world that big that we'll never ever bump into each other? And is it necessary to push yourself 6 feet under to get people to notice you and then what? You munch off from their pity towards you? That's awfully pathetic. Especially for a person who claim that you trust and have faith in God.

***

Current status:......
Now, I'm busy.... trying to stay away from being addicted. =p
Addicted to what/who/where?? That's for me and a few to know and others to never to find out.

2009-05-12T22:25:00.002+08:00

Year 2 Semester 2 Finals are OFFICIALLY over!!!
*fuh* relieved.... after all the draggy-ness, it has finally ended with a "splash".

Yesterday was a very "interesting" day. What made it more interesting was that, it's the day before my last paper.

I had a meeting scheduled with UTAR President yesterday. It could have been on the 13th, which is tomorrow, but thanks to *someone*, it HAD to be on the 11th. And to add salt to the damn wound, that *someone* did not even show up for the damn meeting. How f***ing good is that? I would expect that some notification could have been given even on that day itself to postpone the meeting. But NO..... I still had to use up my study time to get my @** there to only find out that those people who are darn free with no more exams are absent.
So yes, it was a cherry on top of a chocolate cake.

Then, when I'm trying to use up every minute of my time to make them count for studying, some unforseen stuff happened.
My book rack which was placed on top of my study table, came crashing down. And, it gave me a shock of my life that every bit of stuff that I've studied for my final subject just went *poof* out of my brains. And, some of the books fell down and hit my fat boy who was sleeping on the floor near the table. My poor fat boy.... Sigh.

The thing is, that happened at around 3.45am and my exam was at 9am. What the crap!!! Such good timing to have all information pop out of your brains. Thanks to the nice "shock", I couldn't sleep at all too.

And when it came to this morning, my stomach just had to go against me by coming up with gastric. Oh....the devil of all stomach problems. It was just "lovely" as I feel all the gastric juice a.k.a. Hydrochloric Acid slowly burn my stomach wall/lining when I'm thinking of the answers to the questions and busy writing them down while holding on to my stomach like it was going to rip open and burst out with God knows what. It definitely wasn't FUNNY!!!

No doubt, this semester has caused a marked increase in my insanity level. Kudos to that~

Now...to plan for all the upcoming stuff/events... urgh

all at once

2009-05-09T23:01:00.002+08:00

Everything is happening at one go.

First of all, is of course, finals...which is coming to an end on Tuesday. Thank God for that.

Then, the opening of my dad's shop tomorrow. Yup, all the preparations came at the wrong timing. I'm spending all my time helping out with the shop's stuff and left with no time to study for my last paper. I'm still stuck at the 2nd chapter. May the Protein and Proteomics final paper have mercy on me and my sanity...

Then, my grandma got admitted into the hospital few days ago. It's sad to see that she can't even get up and she keeps vomitting out everything she's eaten. It kills me even more when she tells me and my mom that she knows she'll never be able to get up and walk again. Seeing her in pain is really heartbreaking. Knowing that I can't do anything is worse.

I need to....breathe and pray that God will take control.

2009-05-06T00:13:00.002+08:00

At last, 1 more paper to go before the REAL finale. Today's just a small dose of the upcoming short-term freedom.

You have no idea how crazy this time's final was. Just the beginning stretch of paper was good enough to demotivate and simultaneously kill me on the spot. I've yet to pick up my brains. The constant 24/7 studying, not moving my a** from the chair till I'm done, an average of 3 or 4 hours sleep a day... I'm really made out of steel. Plus, I'm a free "kuli" for my family to do work in the shop. I don't know how, but I'm doing it. Even I am amazed at myself for this semester.

Well, exams are a *toot*. Nothing else can explain it better than that. I think this semester has been the craziest so far out of all my 4 semesters put together. All those crap that school teachers tell the form sixers about Uni life being easier for them once they come out from STPM is plain bull****. I don't think so unless you go to a damn government university which you learn nuts in BM.

Now... I really want to faint, drop dead and dead sleep. Also, I need to find a way to fix/salvage/regenerate my brains for my last paper. And... I need to make plans for the upcoming holidays to get away and reclaim myself (the one before all the exams and stress crap).

So this is me signing off to go faint/drop dead/sleep.....

2009-05-02T22:46:00.004+08:00

I have managed to alter a song....based on the song "I Miss You Like Crazy - Moffatts".
It goes....

... i HATE IMMUNO like crazy,

even more than words can say,

i HATE IMMUNO like crazy,

every minute of every day,

i don't wanna fail immuno

and i don't wanna go kampar

i HATE YOU,

HATE YOU,

HATE YOU..

i HATE IMMUNO like crazy...

There...my "wonderful" rendition which is dedicated to Immunology by Dr. *** and Dr. ****. After reading about 18 chapters of Immunology, I definitely/confirm hallucinated at 3am this morning.

Why?? 'Cause I started hearing weird sounds coming from downstairs when there's no one there. Plus, I heard some bells ringing kind of sound (not the normal ice cream bells or temple-used bells kind). And then I heard footsteps up the stairs when both my parents are asleep in their own room and never left their room in the 1st place. Yes... I just conclude that I am hallucinating to save my own sanity and peace of mind... maybe.

And out of nowhere, I have an inflamed region nearing my ankle which I just spotted just now.

And out of nowhere, I started to feel pain in my knee again.

And out of nowhere, I have rash marks on my arm when I don't remember seeing it there yesterday.

And out of nowhere, my brain died

*obituary to my poor brains. I never managed to pick them back up from the floor after today's paper.

Now I need to study about brain activity and what not in Neurobiology when my own brain is fried. ~Yay!! Joy to the world... Joy to the fishes in the deep blue sea... Joy to Neurobiology.... NOT!!!~

Okay, back to self-indulgence into my notes.